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If you don't mind me asking, what do you take now?

I started psych meds for the first time in March and have been on escitalopram. For a bit I think it was working because my mood tracker showed a positive shift, but I think I just had a period of less stress because I'm back to my old ways.

I know we are all different, but I'm just eager to know other's experiences. My problem seems to actually be intense negative mood swings that are suddenly brought on by stressors. I was screened for bipolar disorder and I don't have it (my moods are more volatile and rapid, not cyclical), although I have a first degree relative with it. I asked my relative with bipolar disorder what they take as a curiosity, as I know our genetics are going to be similar. My relative expressed something similar to you...it was rough going through so many different meds, but finally finding the right ones felt pretty life changing.

Anyway, I've been wanting to ask for a med change or increase on my next psych appointment and am just eager to know other's experiences.

Thanks and sorry for the long winded response.

I think you have to take a real sit down with your girlfriend and try to explain this with her. I know she just wants to commiserate with someone, but if it's damaging your mental health then it might be a better idea for her to find another political outlet.

Haven't you ever had places randomize the question order when you have to answer the. Later?

I mean, I know it's entirely opposite to the accepted advice...but when I can't sleep, I actually find it helpful to go on my phone.

Scrolling social media doesn't help though. What helps is putting on long form videos on YouTube that aren't overly engaging. It helps if you've seen them before too. If my thoughts are racing, having something else to focus on (but not too focused) helps a ton.

Sitting in the dark without a mild stimulus doesn't help, despite what the common advice given seems to be.

I know you said you can't have sound, but what about headphones?

You are very sweet, OP. Thank you for the kind words to all. 😊

Oh lol yeah same boat! I couldn't see it!

Have you heard of asexuality? Not the scientific concept, but the sexual orientation.

Wow...similar experience growing up I guess. My dad was very verbally abusive to my mom and a bit to my older sibling. Some physical abuse in private too I guess. The rest of us siblings didn't really get that from him.

As a kid I would always ask my mom why she didn't leave my dad. Thankfully she did eventually in my case. Been over 10 years since she left and I think has improved her life remarkably. Older sibling has also gone no contact with my dad so that's good there too.

I'm sorry your parents are still together like that.

I wouldn't say that I was spoiled, but growing up middle class without parental abuse towards myself I think would rank me pretty highly on this. I didn't realize how privileged I had it until I became an adult. Probably 8/10.

However, my dad was abusive to my mom and a bit to my older sibling. So for my older sibling the score would probably be significantly lower.

I'm a sucker for vehicles with fun colors!

The hearts with the bandage are a nice touch

Do you want him to congratulate you for getting COVID lol

Yes I have very recently. It is currently an ongoing ordeal but I am not hopeful. People have gone to HR about my supervisor before and it has never changed anything.

Thank you for your lengthy message. Many others on here are quick to shun and judge me.

I actually didn't realize that there was a difference between counselling and therapy. I'm sure I could use both, but that is a good thing to be made aware of. I have both stress and anxiety haha!

The vast majority of my outbursts are with my supervisor. I do on occasion have it with someone else if I feel they are treating others inappropriately.

From the internet, a lot of people ask me why I don't just quit. In some scenarios it's not really that simple and really not what I want to do. I don't entirely feel comfortable as to stating all the reasons why, but you just have to trust me on this.

Dude I would love to be able to induce that rn

I have not threatened to stab anyone. I don't think that just because my boss doesn't threaten me with physical violence that it can't be psychologically damaging. With all due respect, that is a very inappropriate response and comparison.

My supervisor nitpicks me and lectures me for every single little thing that I do. Often I am not even actually making mistakes, but just exercise judgement that is different from hers. The kicker is that she wants me to exercise my own judgement about work tasks, refusing to make specific policies on what she wants. But then she chastizes me for not telepathically knowing that she wanted things another way. She talks down to me and comments on my unconscious physical mannerisms. She is a bully and I am not her first victim.

She absolutely is not "holding me responsible for my own shit". She is known for being incredibly difficult to deal with and has had many complaints filed against her to HR. She causes a lot of conflict among a lot of different people. HR just doesn't particularly care and everyone expects me to shut up.

That was a very interesting video.

I do not think I am at all like the man in the video. The man in the video seems to just agree with everything even if he doesn't want to, which is not what I think I do. I do not overcommit and then resent people for it. If someone is an asshole to me then I don't at all agree to do things to keep the peace.

I more have issues when someone is actively being mean to me or others trying to provoke me or others. Or when I am having a bad day and am acting too depressed about things and am then called overdramatic or oversensitive.

Oh yeah, sorry. I didn't mean to imply it was exclusive to one gender! Just staying my own experience. My mom was a victim of domestic violence so I think I was raised with unfortunately that kind of in mind...she always had a passive role in conflict so I was supposed to as well. And then some of my close friends seem to have similar responses to conflict.

Well right...I try a new thing out for a while and then it doesn't work. I either continue to try them even if they don't work (like running...i keep eventually hoping I'll get a benefit after doing it for over a year) or discontinue them and try a new thing. I've never found anything that works for me despite the fact that I keep trying. It's frustrating.

The latest thing I've been trying is SSRIs. Those don't seem to do anything either.

I get that the OP and my responses make it sound like I'm not trying things. I am. I have been. That's why I'm so frustrated.

I want to try giving therapy a longer shot but I have to wait until my work schedule is more consistent. It will be in a bit of a flux for the next month or so.