Depressed anyone around wanting to talk? What are you guys up to?

Just got off a 45 min conference call with a boiler manufacturer.

My employer purchased a boiler that is improper for its use as location, and now is likely stuck eating the cost. Unit alone is just north of 15 large.

Basically, you can’t under size a boiler. You can’t oversize either or they run poorly, are prone to errors and decreased lifespan. It requires some homework when retrofitting a new boiler into an existing application . You have to account for flow rates, head pressure, pump sizes, and some other crap.

I did some good work. I nailed down the required package, turned it over to my employer for approval. Then he went and ordered what he thought was required because ‘I’ve been doing this a lot longer than you have’

I’ve spent the last two days dealing with incorrect delta T, pump purge cycles, % efficiency versus incoming water temps on a brand new boiler. Unaccounted for spikes in temp due to multiple pumps at different speeds causing improperly mixed hot water to reenter the boiler. I’ve cursed. I’ve screamed. I walked off the site for a few hours today to chill out.

In an act of desperation I called tech support to verify my homework and that this is the right unit for the job.

Turns out it’s not. It’s too large, and the pumps responsible for the zones are too fast. And it cannot be returned. It’s been ‘activated’ on the website so now my boss bought it, more or less. The tech rep’s suggestion was purchase the proper unit and when we find an application for the improper one we can have the warranty transferred over.

Feels good to be dead right. Fuck you Jim.

Been trying to write another album for a year now but nothing's coming. I'm not into anything I'm making. I might take a road trip for inspiration.

I finally dropped a lot of weight this year. Having abs might be cool and might be in reach. I'm actually doing ok, finally on some anxiety meds.

Hope you feel better

Just got back from work, hard day of delivering beans but I also took a bit of time to put up some fliers for a local action against the genocide this weekend that we're hoping will be bigger than usual

Got a really awesome banh mi sandwich at my first delivery spot along with some kim chi flavored potato salad but had to save half the sandwich for later because of work

My life sucks and I also feel sad all the time but today was a pretty good day, gonna go walk my dog now

Iggy hopes you feel better too

Currently serving dinner to old people. Today I wrapped way too many banana cakes.

Sorry you're feeling sad comrade, here's a meow hug

I just broke up a home-baked chocolate chip cookie into a bowl of ice cream

it was good

Not depressed, but I have some nasty hay fever that my meds aren't working too good on, so I'm here

I got a bit of a headache but im gonna drink some water and eat a pasta

sad for some reason

Same here. I feel like low energy Jeb right now. I'm getting a blood test and might find a doctor to start looking at meds.

I'm dreading finding meds that work for me because I'll probably find ones with side effects I don't like at first.

I should probably reach out to people, but I don't feel like a good hang rn.

I'm being unproductive as usual. HBU?

Time to return to work. Hoping this won’t end in redundancy or bankruptcy like all my other jobs. This time I’m going to become an immensely boring person for a year, get my finances in order and have actual retirement and emergency funds in place.

Im having trouble with who I am and who I want to be, yet the person that I want to be is an imposible perfect person made up by the imposible expectations of my narcisict parents who ignore the reality of being alive today and the cost of everything.

I have to learn to forgive myself as my parents made me feel guilty for not being able to fix their lives. They wanted me to be their conselor, their financial advisor, their house cleaner etc.

Doing minor amounts of paperwork stuff, because someone forgot they needed my signature on this one thing.

Also, procrastinating on planning this other thing (that's happening all too soon), but also I don't think I'm allowed to work on it yet (sort of). Bit of a weird situation.

Thinking about doing medical classes, because it's been forever since WFR (I think) and whatnot. I'm up to date with my CPR, first aid, and STB, the normal stuff. I've toyed around with the idea of being a real EMT, but also I don't want to change industries (I imagine the pay isn't amazing). Always been an interest of mine.

As far as things are going in general, I'm doing pretty good. Mentally quite well, though I'm not entirely sure what the difference is between now and the worse times. Tapering stuff quite well, and haven't had any sort of relapsing for a good while.

I will never be happy

I've had a pretty chill day. Just took a couple of bong rips and put on Shoresy

I'm here and lurking - my heart is out for you