How's your week been?
How's your week been?
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Srs recovery. My back aches from laying on it all the time. Mouth tastes bad. Gas churning in my guts but not coming out. It adds to the ache. Breathing hurts. Both too warm and too cold at the same time thanks to the ice pack in my crotch. Time is passing very slowly
Painkiller burns my veins
Congratulations! Recovery is brutal, but it feels so much better after you're all healed.
Things I've found out this week:
- wearing a skirt makes me look pregnant (way too much belly fat)
- makeup looks a lot better from a distance
- eyeliner won't stick (tried liquid and pencil so far)
- I have no idea how to do makeup
- skincare makes a huge difference
- camisole over t-shirt rocks!
- buying clothes I like is fun!
- still look like a fat old man in drag :(
I (mtf) bought a couple of summer dresses online which is a huge step because I haven't allowed myself this kind of femininity yet, and now that they arrived I feel awesome instead of shameful!
Now I just need to figure out if I actually like them and how well they fit, I'm kinda funny sized in a way most fem clothes are not intended...
Yus! Buy all the dresses!
Its really hard to find a dress that is sized and proportioned for our bodies. For some reason clothing companies are positively allergic to making cute "plus sized" clothing. Personally I go for dresses with straps rather than sleeves, the others just make me dysphoric.
I think I am slowly starting to develop a transphobe alert. It's just a matter of trusting your feelings. I'm still respectful in those situations, but I am tired of being caught by surprise by rude behavior.
I'm having an easier time staying sane. Guess I'm healing :D
I've (MtF) been doing pretty good lately. I recently came out to work and I'm about to get a new badge soon. I'm basically full time fem now.
The only ones I haven't come out to yet are like outside family members such as my aunts and grandma and cousins. I currently have a supportive cousin but we barely talk due to life and stuff. And I'm pretty sure my aunts are gonna flip out so that'll be bad. Grandma might be supportive. And I have at least one other cousin in the LGBTQ community. My parents are not supportive but my Dad still at least wants to talk to me and stuff so that's nice I guess. So I guess its a bit of a mix in that regard...
In addition, HRT is doing its thing and I like the progress I've been making. Although atm, idk if its the progesterone... but at night i get really dizzy and tired sometimes... Thankfully I'm usually at home by the time I take my meds so, I just lay down and fall asleep. And I'm usually better in the morning.
This Wednesday I'll be going to a hair salon to get my hair trimmed a bit, but not too much. I'm trying to grow it out. And then later I plan on making another appointment to get my hair dyed. Probably gonna do red highlights of some kind (I currently have Brown hair).
And then I'm also going to Otakon on Aug 2nd so that'll be fun!
So yee! Overall pretty good ;-) <3
Congrats on coming out at work! I'm a little ashamed to admit my work is the one place I've been too afraid to come out (I work with clients and you never know how much of a shitbag they can be).
I hope things get better for you sweetie. I know it's hard. Try to take things one step at a time.
I'm existing! I'm enjoying gaming again (haven't been able to dive in for a while, just couldn't get my brain to sit and enjoy it), plenty of good anime coming out this year that I've been enjoying.
Work is work-y. It puts commands into the shell and then it gets the pay again.