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  • My son was born. I held him in my arms for the first time. As that happened, outside the window a massive fireworks display kicked off, along a nearby city river. It was that kind of moment. My boy in my arms. Fireworks, silent, but massive and beautiful, just for me. For us.

  • Just last week actually. I was visiting my parents and we were having dinner with the radio on. I started talking about how I was learning the piano and had most of The Scientist by Coldplay learned, and how I like the piano part in the song a lot. And as I finished talking, it came on the radio, just perfect timing. I actually thought the smart speaker somehow picked up on me saying the song name but nope, definitely was just good timing on the radio station.

  • Some years ago I’ve been to a blink182 open air concert with a girl I liked. And just when the chorus of the song „always“ started, warm Summer rain began to fall. It was amazing!

  • FIDLAR keeps describing aspects of my life as it's happening. These four were actual needle drop moments as something big was happening in my real life.

    2012 - Wake, Bake, Skate

    Minus the skating, this is pretty much what my life was in 2012. My Nexus 4 had mysteriously stopped working as a cell phone (everything else worked fine, but the IMEI was all zeroes), Google was unwilling to RMA it because I didn't have a spare $300 in my bank account and no credit card, so I was using Skype on it as a primary "phone." "No Waves" and "5 to 9" also described this time as well.

    And I'm so fuckin' cheap
    \ And I'm so fuckin' broke
    \ And I don't have a job
    \ And I don't have a phone
    \ Don't have a life
    \ And I'm always stoned

    2015 - Leave Me Alone

    Felt this one a lot in 2015. "Stupid Decisions" and "Bad Habits" from the same album also hit hard that year.

    I guess I'm damaged
    \ But I'll manage
    \ In my room, all by myself
    \ Be dramatic

    Too late to die young, and too young to burn out
    \ (I'm so burnt out)
    \ Or I can fade away, I just say that I'm happy
    \ Now leave me alone
    \ Leave me alone

    I'm stupid
    \ So stupid
    \ And nothing in the world's gonna change my mind
    \ So you can suck it

    2019 - Called You Twice

    As my long term relationship started to really fall apart.

    I never meant to call you
    \ But then I went and called you twice
    \ I never meant to know you
    \ But now I know the things you like and don’t like
    \ And baby, when I saw you
    \ I saw that we would crash and burn
    \ I went to every school but
    \ I never really learned

    2024 - Orange County

    I'm not from Orange County nor do I drink, but this easily described the aftermath of the end of the relationship and neither of us being able to move on easily. "Sad Kids," "Making Shit Up," "Dog House," and "I Don't Want To Do This" from the same album also described this year as well.

    Can't eat, can't sleep
    \ Can't think, can't blink
    \ I got a job working holidays
    \ Moved back to Orange County
    \ I'm running outta ways to say
    \ I'm sorry that you feel this way
    \ But if you wanna get back together

    I think, I drink
    \ I drink, I sink
    \ Don't wanna talk about my issues
    \ Fuck you, I miss you
    \ And now I'm running outta things to say
    \ And all I wanna do is run away
    \ But if you wanna get back together

    I think I don't wanna do this anymore
    \ I think I don't wanna live like this anymore
    \ And I don't think I'm suicidal, no I just wanna die
    \ I don't think I'm suicidal, no I just wanna die

    Anyway, here I am, surviving the American dream.

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