You took action to remedy the immediate problem. That's a huge step.
Now you're grieving for the current state and how it could have gotten this bad. It's ok to cry and accept that your past self made mistakes, when you're able to you should forgive your past self. Take as long as you need to do that.
What comes next is getting to your feet and just fix it up a little. Doesn't have to be a lot and it won't all get done overnight. All that's needed is just 1% everyday. It's ok to take a break, it's ok to go slower, but a little progress everyday and you'll get there.
It's OK dog. The thing is, you figured it out. You're better off than those that never figured it out. Now you just gotta move on from where you're at.
Choices - we make them, chances - we take them
Some are mistakes, some we celebrate them
We don't look back, cause so much we facin
I always stay proud of myself, I'm yelling, "Fuck regret!"
I hate when people call everything AI without any reason or looking into it. It might be by the original author, or just a person imitating their style.