lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's] @ lilypad @hexbear.net

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Omigosh!! Im so glad youre alright and have housing lined up and everything!

Falling down again. I hate this shit

You absolutely do not have to hand it to them. Theyre independent enough to recognize an opportunity to amass power, thats it.

And iiiii kissed america, when she was fleecing meeeeee,

Sheeeee knows i understand, that she needs to be free,

An iiiiii miss america, and sometimes she does too,

And soooooommmmeetimes i think of her, when she is fucking you.

How do you get a closer shave with DE safety razors? I bought one, but it just doesnt work well... With the venus razor i lather up, shave an area with the grain and then while its still wet against the grain, and move on to the next area. With the safety razor i have to relather before going against the grain, and tbh the shave is not as close. I end up shaving again and again and again. The venus cartridges i can press deep into my skin with no problem, the DE safety razor i have to tread much more lightly. To get the same closeness of shave i find myself shaving 5+ times against the grain, and even then the hairs are still poking out a bit. I try holding it at different angles, i try moving it in different ways, but it still leaves hairs and visible shadow... Is this just a skill issue?

My mothers drip machine from the 90s still going strong, but my family has gone through multiple newer drip machines. Its one of the places that newer products suck.

I remember when i could actually use firefox on linux on my 2011 celeron with 4gb ram

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I try not to think about my voice. Its.... Not great... Makes me sad. Voice training is really hard because of my executive function being shitty.

Kinda yes. Dynamic extent globals, yeah those have some good uses. Indefinite extent globals? For a config variable or something that they have use, something that get set once, but read many times. That being said, i wouldnt miss them terribly i think

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Im alright with the shape of my legs and hips and waist, but then my ribcage sits on top of them and it looks like someone took two dolls and swapped their top and halfs. I just hate my top half so much!!!!! Fuck!

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Its been bad lately. I just want to be able to look at myself naked in the mirror and be kinda ok with myself. It feels like progress is going backwards, my body feels less feminine than a year ago, after a couple laser sessions my face somehow has more hair and i cant afford more laser (they charge a lot, i did the math and its $400-600 an hour). But specifically, my shoulders are just wrecking me right now...

How do yall deal with shoulder dysphoria? I realllly dislike my shoulders, and everything makes them look larger. For reference im 195cm and somewhat thin (my belly begs to differ tho), with somewhat wide shoulders (my armpits line up with my hips). I used to try and find things to wear that would work for my body, but i have no money and tbh i dont think this is something clothing can fix... I just want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and be ok with myself...

Gender is fake but also im a woman but also im not a woman i just do woman but also theres no such thing as woman but also but also but also

It was one of the tactics used. Buy land -> learn to work land from locals -> evict locals.

Preface: im not terribly smart on all this.

Short version: patriarchy serves as a vector for reproducing social structures and preparing children for their futures so that they fill their roles within society. It is itself a system of a hierarchy of personhood (and violence), but it exists alongside capitalism and not because of/in service to it. Primary function as far as i can tell of patriarchy is to ensure births (under capitalism this is beneficial in many ways (e.g. replenish the reserve body of labour)). Patriarchy serves to make women property and ensure control over reproductive labor.

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So, im not super well read, but the way i view it is that patriarchy (or rather, the western gender system which has patriarchy as a characteristic (dw ill get into it below)) exists alongside capitalism. It existed before capitalism and had synergy with prior economic structures and systems as well as capitalism. So, patriarchal control (really, a hierarchy og personhood backed up by violence all along gender lines) developed alongside the development of capitalism, and doesnt really serve capitalism in a hierarchical sense, but is synergystic with capitalism (and vice versa). Any economic system that requires laborers, but especially capitalism which requires a reserve body of labour, benefits from a system that ensures births, which patriarchy does quite well by subjugating people who can give birth and forcing them into that labor (e.g. prime example is the nuclear family).

As an aside, our gender system is binary and patriarchal, meaning it defines 3 classes (men (i.e. cishet men), women (i.e. cishet women), and the delinquent class (anyone who doesnt have the same relations to reproductive labour as the other two classes (so, gay men, lesbians, trans people, bisexual people, etc.))). Additionally it defines a hierarchy of personhood and violence, with men on the top. (Also this is super simplified version it plays out in much more complicated ways than this).

Considering and using the terms defined in the previous paragraph, within the context of the nuclear family patriarchy+capitalism establishes a social contract whereby the man works, is exploited, and brings home a wage to support his family. The woman works in the home, being maid, therapist, punchingbag (physical or emotional), and most importantly to this system childbearer and rearer.

Patriarchy also serves as a really important vector for reproducing social structures. It trains children in their future roles. Young boys learn that they are future masters but also future wage slaves, and young girls learn that they are future homemakers (to put it nicely...). This helps capitalism by training the young boy to accept oppression in exchange for getting to be the master of his house/have dominion over women (unless they are owned by another man (yes property relations are in play)), and trains the young girl to accept oppression in exchange for some financial security through marriage (remember that women until recently couldnt work, couldnt have a bank account or get a loan, etc.)

Theres way more that could be said, and many people smarter and more educated than me who could say it.

Nothing like contributing to a project for years and knowing your deadname is in so many commits... Cant force push to the project to remove your deadname, but dont want to keep contributing under your deadname, but its also sus if some brand new person suddenly shows up with intimate knowledge of parts of the codebase that youre the only knowledgable person on... Theres no good way forward lol

There is a sliver of hope: The rainforests that currently carpet the tropics may be more resilient to high temperatures than those that existed before the Great Dying. This is the question the scientists are tackling next.

Nah, ive been sold that "sliver of hope" my whole life and watched as we blow past it again and again. Theyre not gettin me this time. We can solve a lot of our problems. We choose not to.

My tolerance went way down when i started E, but that was a couple years ago lol so i dont think its whats going on. I think i just havent had alcohol in a while and am no longer used to it

I had two drinks over the course of several hours, how am i somehow drunkish? Like, im not drunk drunk, but im more than tipsy??? Granted, i havent had alcohol in weeks, but still two drinks (not even super heavy pours either, like an extra 20% cause the bartender likes meeee) shouldnt hit me like this???? New calibration point for alcohol ig?

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! That is all.

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