Welcome! It sounds like you feel pretty similar to how I've come to realize my autism. Major signs that none notices, thinking you just really care about texture, stuff like that. This community has been super friendly so keep coming back here. Two last notes, check out the info page for this sublemmy, it has things to watch and read about autism, and lastly dont worry about getting diagnosed, self diagnosis is exactly, if not more ballad than a medical one. Get a diagnosis if you can but if not dont worry about it. If you need anything there are always people online on this sublemmy, also on the mastadon chat but to as lesser extent
Check the info tab for this sublemmy (I guess that's what you'd call it) it has a ton of information and stuff to read and watch, that's actually where I found this!
Being apart of a group feels great, going from feeling like none understands what I'm going through, to finding out not only is there a name for everything I do, but there's people with similar experiences??? They're like me??? I'm not alone???
I've definitely started doubting and questing things that I think and feel. I recently quit a job I had been working at for about 4 years, not because of autism just moving on. And on the last day I kept thinking "this is the last time I get to do X". Then I realized that I don't care, like at all about it being my last time, this whole time I've been doing this because I see other people do it. It's so weird to go through this process and realize that almost my entire life has been a facade, it's a good weird, it's an answer to why I've felt this way, but weird nonetheless.
Zorin OS is a personal favorite. Don't worry about the paied version, just get the free one. You can get everything on the paid version for free, it's just so thr deevs can get some support
Yeah, I'd much rather be alone and not have to think of how to act and speak but also I realize that I have a limited time where I will be living with my family and having them at that short of access. I'd like to say I've found a happy medium but I mostly like to hide in my room.
Welcome! It sounds like you feel pretty similar to how I've come to realize my autism. Major signs that none notices, thinking you just really care about texture, stuff like that. This community has been super friendly so keep coming back here. Two last notes, check out the info page for this sublemmy, it has things to watch and read about autism, and lastly dont worry about getting diagnosed, self diagnosis is exactly, if not more ballad than a medical one. Get a diagnosis if you can but if not dont worry about it. If you need anything there are always people online on this sublemmy, also on the mastadon chat but to as lesser extent