Looking back as I try to jusfify having autism, it really is almost funny how many warning signs myself, and my family have ignored. One of them being that every time I get remotely stressed, like being put in a new location or basically someone talking to me I just start spinning my phone rapidly. Like why didn't I think of why I did that??? And I was talking to my mom and she goes "you know you used to be so scedual oriented as a kid, if we went shopping mid day you would freak out because you couldn't watch your cartoons, I would have to give you 15 or 20 minute warnings, not five because that wasn't enough". Like autism red flag mom geez!
And during this conversation I was trying to find an in into mentioning that I though I might be autistic so I say " oh and I used to love lining up my hotwheels too right?" She said yes. WHAT??? Glad autism awareness is growing nowadays but I'm still shocked I got this far undetected, I'm like the batman of autism.
What if you made some nice business cards that said something like "Yo diggidy dog, I got AUTISM (bolded in all caps with sparkles) and I'm feeling a little over stimulated (more sparkle), and I don't mean to be rude but could you flip the card over? (Now the rest of this is on the back) give me some space (space is underlined and in light blue) (with more sparkles.
Hey I actually managed to have a conversation about it and we're scheduling an appointment! The conversation was insanely funny too, my mom was talking about how time oriented I was as a child, like if we went to the store mid day it would get me so angry, and how much I loved lining up and sorting my hotwheels. I was so shocked that such clear signs had been given when I was a child, and they didn't realize ir that I just was laughing, and now I've got an appointment
I don't know either, but from context clues I think it's what happens when you find out masking is harmful to you, and you try to stop it. Some people do this by losing social skills and regressing into a less social person. Probably also other things but I'm no expert.
I remember seeing a YouTube short about a right winger reading the news story and laughing that the libtards just discovered sailing ships, and the comments all full of people saying like "can't teach stupid" and stuff like that. But that has nothing it do with it? Like why criticize people for using previous, useful, technologies that have gone unused in the past??? Like the article wasn't even touting this as a new invention, which it technically is because it's not just as simple as putting sails on a boat, but their only argument was that it's mid evil tech and the left is stupid for using it. So frustrating.
Thank you! I guess I have prioritized a diagnosis more than needed. It really won't do more good for me than just allowing me to say I've been diagnosed. Which I guess I could lie about, but I think I'd rather not do that.
I don't know. It's just an uncomfortable feeling I guess. Probably a mix of my hate for attention, I don't even like complements, to a worry about how they'll treat it and react. Both of my siblings have depression and they were willing to help them, but they've always treated them differently from me, they're both girls and when they sure their interests, it's congratulated, but when I've shared mine it's often met with criticism. I guess it's some mid of that.
I always felt like I was born without the user manuals everyone else got and hat to learn it manually
Preach, I feel that every day.
Thank you for the essay! Jokes aside I ready do appreciate it. Its good advice, especially finding concrete ways that others can use to work around autism. I hope your ADHD journey continues to go well. Thank you
Well I am glad to hear that. I know it won't solve my problem but when I'm feeling like I'm faking it, it'll be great to have this comment to remember and grasp on to. Thank you
Thank you, finally knowing why I do things is fantastic. I'm excited to continue to learn about what autism is and what it'll mean for me, even if it's painful at times. Thanks for the response
Thank you, a wall of text is fantastic, it's so weird to see issues and problems I've been having that have felt like they were just something I experience just written out by someone I don't even know yet.
That first comment on not feeling like your Autistic enough hits home so hard. I've felt that ever since I started wondering if I was autistic. It's definitely not a struggle I'm over but having someone else even mention it is amazing. Thank you.
And for stimming, I've learned to spin just about any object across my palm, I had no idea that's what I was doing. This whole time I just though I was just fiddling. That's so cool that there's a word for that. Thank you for your wall of text and advice, I guarantee you I'll be competing back to this comment over and over.
My bad, just meant to argue that taxes weren't explicitly communist. I don't have any strong feelings for or agains t communism yet, maybe I'll look into it later. Just hate to see people use thr name of an economic system as a debate ender, although I suppose I did the same. Guess it's just the debater in me wishing we could have actual structural arguments on thr internet instead of throwing slang words around.
Nice man! I think I'll just have to man up and talk to a doctor, I don't know if I'll be able to do that anytime soon, but I appreciate it.
also seems like I should have put less ephasiss on the test, that has just been one of the many things on the road to thinking I might have autismz but doubting online tests is a very really and good thing to do, so I can't blame folk.
Wouldn't it not be illegal to hack it? Since you own the hardware?