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business consolidation especially in tech, food, and entertainment tells me there's just some really awful shit on the horizon - we like to act like these things are purely greed driven things, and while that's a huge element of why this shit happens, it also feels like... frankly, a more direct consolidation of power in anticipation of precipitous decline in material conditions for the folks without investiture in these rapidly consolidating and monopolized industries.

you absolutely can and will live right next to paralllel selves.

one of these lives you're gonna reach enlightenment and realize 60% of the time your mom was yourself

in between the release of Red Alert 1 and Tiberian Sun, frank klepacki took video games music to its height and it has been downhill since.

Hellmarch and Pharaotek are basically the high water mark, and they are turning 30 soon. Sad.

it pays and the kinds of people who get to do this spend their entire lives being gassed up and told that their place is one of merit and auspice so they act the part even when they're a braindead moron drooling t hemselves out on the floor while enabling horrific things domestically and abroad, they absolutely see themselves the enlightened protagonist and it's fucking infuriating.

you know how nursing homes smell? exactly like that.

a mafia style open world game setting up protection rackets, extorting the wealthy, robbing banks, etc. for the cause.

When I was in highschool i got really obsessed with the concept of conditioning as taught by my psych class - operant conditioning and stuff being described in the simplest terms possible - and that led to weird places later in life. You can read between the lines if you want, but that's not why I'm here. I only wish to convey the start of a lifelong journey of deliberate self conditioning, taking the reigns of how I think and do in a way a lot of people surrender to their environment, chance, and genetic factors, i chose to control as much as one can.

This is hard work, it comes easier to some than others, but it gives me an understanding of how our inputs inform our outputs.

The major behavioral changes I really invested myself in were shedding 'male' coded thought pattern and behavior in favor of the feminine, but from the moment I undertook that work, I found that my inputs, largely dictated by circumstance and male socialization in the past, were informing my own plasticity - the flexibility of who i could be, because in some level the inputs - the media, the conversations i had - the people i surrounded myself with - all contributed to a reinforcement of what was already there, and continued development along axes i no longer found personally fulfilling.

so... i cut myself off from a lot of media. I was busy already, the free time I had no longer made sense as something i would waste on passive entertainment and matters that didn't improve myself somehow - video games became very unimportant to me, between hormonal changes and a dissatisfaction with my own mental treadmill - and especially violent games, violent media, pornography, etc.

My behavior changed. Say nothing of the hormones - the constant exposure of these elements normalized and reinforced toxic tendencies, and de-sensitized me to real human suffering that, within some months of re-ordering the inputs in my life, began to fade away and give way to a much more genuine expression of self.

I believe violent video games worsen us as humans. I believe the media we consume is largely tailored to reinforce worldviews that, even if only grudgingly, accept casual cruelty and violence at every level of society, and especially convey a sense that this is how it needs to be - and this is how American capital has largely captured the hearts and minds of its citizenry - even those of us unwilling to actually cooperate find ourselves pulled and forcibly immersed in this context that's reinforced by this kind of media.

So to me, no - the communist utopia of the unwritten future has none of this fucking shit in it - because this shit makes us worse people.

That's hard to square. I know. This garbage is the easiest dopamine pump we have, and at this point your treats are load bearing things - you would actually wanna do something stupid to remediate your material conditions if you didn't have them - and that's the point - this is the shit that makes you sleep. This is the shit Nada comprehends in black and white plain text when he puts his glasses on. You have to step away and refuse it to break out and perceive the tomorrow you yearn for with the religiosity of a devout Catholic seeking divine union.

is it normal to thirst after podcasters

i dont know or care what normal is really im just wondering

lecture random people they should be grateful for the soviet union's occupation

i feel like a lot of the "detective" shows that appear in columbo's wake, including some that columbo's own stable of early writers/directors worked on, were extremely regressive revisions of what columbo was.

it didn't even take until the show was cancelled for its legacy to be a bunch of reactionary dreck

you really do

well i was! I would at least raise my eyebrows and watch an episode if it was a thing. I think columbo without an extant peter falk to play him is a dead end road, but there are guys and gals out there that probably have what it takes to step into the role, and i'd watch it at least once

Another great character thing is that he loves his wife. Like, this shouldn't be a huge thing, but look at every. single. cop. show. it's wife hate and marital strife. Look at basically every comedic thing a boomer or gen xer ever touched, it's a load bearing amount of "hate my wife" jokes.

Columbo out here just, clearly adoring his spouse and it's just... i dunno i love it.

He's completely wholesome, but a chameleon gremlin with the prescience of like, Paul Atreides and a disposition to ruining the untouchable class.

please dont troll this most serious of threads

one of the best episodes is one where he goes after a guy who runs a private intelligence outfit and even tries to buy him out with a gigantic ass salary

My favorite thing about the show is that while often times maybe you're not gonna catch everything columbo catches, and some stuff can be contrived, the show is still begging you to pay attention. If you were impressionable and going to model whatever came on your TV, being observant and thoughtful would be the outcome for watching this. Columbo always notices details that are amiss - the idea that if something like a murder has taken place, but has been staged to seem accidental or otherwise non-criminal, there are tells. there are signs. there are disturbances. inconsistencies between people, alibies, and the truth of an event - and i think i love that. It's a good moral to try and impart, but i think it might be lost on decades of boomers, gen xers, millenials, and zoomers memeing too hard, but i also think it's right there to pick up on if you're willing

They think we are still tantruming as party to their bullshit rather than having largely chosen Bust and moved on to effective action lol

i have always been kinda snobby but i detest basic bitch rock. verse chorus verse is an acceptable structure, but for like five straight decades we got music that was mostly about materialistic excess, and anything deeper was usually on the periphery - if you didn't want more music about girls, cars, sex, having a good time then I have bad news.

But I like everything that rose to technically and lyrically interesting heights, and i hope someday rock and roll can reinvent itself from the old and ossified thing it has become.

Grimes I get that you like Dune but nobody is going to let a bunch of silicon valley dweebs literally become the Tlielaxu and I need you to stop zapping yourself with the bimbofication ray you're already drooling your brain out on the floor for everyone to see and it's fucking embarassing

This video might be a jumping off point (the entire channel is good, and some of his other videos touch on this). It's a primer on atheism and how it's a funky label, and defines some atheistic spiritual practices therein, and why they are still academically atheistic.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AfcwTiOGnig

I personally have found meditation, mindfulness, and a lot of activities that induce altered states used in mystic practices to be immensely rewarding to cultivate, and I feel like being atheistic and materialist is likely to prime you to shut off those avenues, but they cultivate control over your interior experience like nothing else, and a materialist should be able to slot that into their ontology just fine.