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This video might be a jumping off point (the entire channel is good, and some of his other videos touch on this). It's a primer on atheism and how it's a funky label, and defines some atheistic spiritual practices therein, and why they are still academically atheistic.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AfcwTiOGnig

I personally have found meditation, mindfulness, and a lot of activities that induce altered states used in mystic practices to be immensely rewarding to cultivate, and I feel like being atheistic and materialist is likely to prime you to shut off those avenues, but they cultivate control over your interior experience like nothing else, and a materialist should be able to slot that into their ontology just fine.

frankly if you'd ditch the fascism losers and be nice to us homos and transes i wouldn't give a single fucking shit

i always hated those shit-ass attitudes.

I don't play them anymore but I had runs in team fighting games where randoms were a regular feature, and the skill level could be all over the place, and I never had someone who was bad at the game respond to advice and coaching badly - at worst they ignore it, but I remember winning games in dota 2 by just telling whichever loser was losing his shit on the newbie to shut the fuck up and advise the newbie to do as i say.

Like, if you decide that a skill gap is both a liability to play and potentially gonna make the game worse for you subjectively, first remember yourself and when you started, then fucking HELP THEM WHILE BEING NICE it's so easy and i don't get why people can't just lean into it, it's consistently productive of making a rough time into a fun time IME

apparently the worldview has some like conspiracy baked in that you aren't allowed to be a public figure without being transed up as a kind of satanic rejection of the natural order

and i'm mostly over here holding books of esoterica and shrugging like YEAH I WISH MOTHERFUCKER

i can't get away from brown moses and i hate it

Dune is literally my favorite sci fi book so no but this is still a callout

i am deeply into religion and stuff and i gotta say, islam rules. like the quran is great in every manner on a metaphysical level. The way it uses parable statements to explain the nature of god is next level and it's so cool.

i don't call myself a muslim but i genuinely enjoy the shit out of reading it and tbqh i wish we had more islamic cultural penetration in the US so i might understand it better

i think the militarized right is decently willing to pop off, and i have anxiety about a coup attempt amounting to more than a limp dicked capitol riot tbh

but also most of them wouldn't dare fuck up their sacred constitution, holy and beyond scrutiny

i should've specified, the middle republic to the division of east and west, then through to the end of the west - but ESPECIALLY in modern times the utter dominance of the late republic and early empire. I am familiar the byzantines got up to some shit, but i'm frankly way less studied there, and they have next to no capture of the western mind the way early imperial rome does

my lord, who reigns from a hexagon, hallowed be thy name, thy bottled water come, may the masses starve and die

amen

to identify with alchemy at this juncture is implicating a set of beliefs, based on a handful of cherrypicked actual alchemical texts and guys like Jung who use alchemy as a metaphor for internal change that doesn't map at all historically to what alchemy was, which was proto-chemistry first and anything else second, but is something modern people looking back on tend to incorporate into their understanding of it.

But the title of that video just means that guy has read paracelsus and jung and wants to talk about FMA lore as it maps onto our actual extant literature on the matter.

Those days were fucking crazy. I actually had hope back then too, though. Like I'd never seen this much sustained rioting across the nation where like average people were organizing and systematically sparring with local authority - i think it's honestly why quarantine ended the way it did - the loss of life was acceptable far more than a situation where an already disquieted populace had the time and means to actually challenge the fascist order of the day domestically

get a glove and smear dogshit on his door handle. Do this in such a way as to avoid camera detection if that's relevant. just keep doing this.

I genuinely think there's way too much money in crypto that there's no way they don't somehow try to force fetch to happen. I massively fear a world where crypto has so much wealth buy-in that one of the more dominant coins finds itself getting a major nation to back it, or allow it as lawful exo-currency. The united states is specifically on a cultural, political, and economic precipice and I absolutely see the coming imperial crises causing an opening with which this horseshit permanently embeds itself in the economy. The blockchain is a god-sent to the security state, having a permanent, un-falsifiable record of all transactions would make any letter agency data twat salivate

there's very real reason to think that crypto-bros are gonna find a way into a kind of unescapable legitimacy. The groundwork is being laid socially already, even if there's not a lot of buy-in, it's something a lot of people are at least nominally aware of, and all it takes is some kind of economic catastrophy, which is likely in the short-mid term, and with their ear already bent to our completely for-sale government, it'll become normal and just the way it is ("ugh I hate having to open my crypto wallet!!! web 3 sure is worse than web 2!!" they whine as they make their peace with how things are yet again, doing nothing about it)

I basically predicted elon musk would turn twitter to the right, and everyone would thrash and whine and mostly give up and carry on just because the platform is too valuable - that's a victory for him, even if he lost some people - they're all peoplegroups outside of the world he wants.

This is the way of forcing shit down people's throats, and i just don't think crypto is done yet, and i fucking hate it. I'm trying to get myself in a position to more seriously drop out if/when it happens

I've always hated reddit. Like, I used to be Angry Online about the existence of reddit before it was a normie hotspot - i know hexbear is running a similar system, but aglo driven discussion hierarhcy is literally discourse poison and at volume everyone is so stupid that what's popular will inevitably be really dumb - I love that the thread is filled with people throwing "degrowther" out like a slur, because it's really telling in the worst way that they worship Number Go Up and the upside of this is you can assume everything downstream in their book-length post is pure ideology and cope - and if you're smart enough to already know they're the court soothsayers whose main job is justifying American hegemony by exalting the virtue of Number and doing the equivalent of parlor tricks with numbers to categorize sub.Number.x-y in such a way that comports to their worldview and has, if not a moral justification, a "rationalized" one - something that a dumb person or a sociopath can go "hey it sucks but that's just the way It Works"

A traditionally trained Astrologer will literally have a higher predictive hit rate than these people for any matter they ostensibly went to school to "understand"

It would be funny if these people weren't a big part of how this massively unjust thing we all live under justifies itself.

(it's still pretty funny)

i got a nice sack tap and a "good job" pat on my shaft so it was genital verification hour.

it was dysphoric, but understand I was stressed and mostly happy to get through it, and i mean it sucked, it's an extreme violation of my person and a severe abuse of authority, but I also can't and couldn't do shit. I wanted to catch up to my partner and get to our terminal because i had way more on my mind - i've done more invasive bullshit for fun, and i dont remotely appreciate having my dysphoria amplified by systemic abuse, or any kind of consent to that activity be a non-question, but i'm the kind of person to just shove it down and get on with life. For better and worse. i've processed it more emotionally by posting by it than i have in the three years since it happened.

Everyone saying they're wannabe cops aren't lying. Every time I get in that line I just assume I am someone's bad day away from being fucked with because of my identity - it's something i've only had to deal with for five years, and i'm in my thirties - but it made me realize just how fucked up certain things have been for certain identities for much longer - and how morally sick the US is societally that this is just accepted.

100%, fascism is all about the image of seriousness, solidarity, and the struggle against the perenially weak but ever-existentially-threatening Enemy, and the pageantry and horseshit required just cannot accept ridicule. It's why media like The Producers works at all, and it's weird nobody in power thought to just ridicule these people, but i've been doing it as much as i can in real life and it works every time

i got selected for a patdown heading to texas to visit family and introduce my nesting partner and likely future wife, because it felt appropriate and my parents don't drink teh water that gives everyone in texas brainworms i guess.

anyway I think it's because I went visibly trans, because that lady felt up my junk and if I wasn't a huge fucking weirdo i might've had a problem with that. It felt fucked up even if I was pretty unphased by it happening to me, just like, really oppressive shit you've got when a rando can clock a trans girl and decide they want some touchy feely

Me, incredibly smart: Traumatized soldier man hide in box xD

Being serious, sarcastically: My mom had this moment where she reached six-figure salary for a couple of years, because she had some charisma and was good at selling houses. I was too young to appreciate how, largely poor my family was before this. I mean, i remember enjoying those ketchup and white bread sandwiches for lunch. I was less of a fan of my dad's back seat seatbelt jamming on me and getting me stuck enough that we had to get help extracting me from the seat of his car. There are these pock-mark memories that are personal proof i was just blissfully innocent midst pretty serious poverty. But, yeah, we had this little moment, where my grandpa had just retired, the og .com bubble hadn't popped, so the shares he had in his employer weren't worthless yet, and my mom was making six figures selling houses.

Well anyway, her job gets legislated out of existence, because the houses she sold probably put too much property into the hands of poors, and before she can adjust, her body just violently explodes. Like several body parts start failing and she develops COPD from y ears of heavy smoking.

So she can't work, and even if she could, she's gotta figure out how to roll with the changing markets - but that never happens because she enters a coma, and wakes up needing long term disability.

Well luckily my mom paid the lifetime cap into SSDI - so she has that right?

Right?

Yes, three years from the first application, after hiring a lawyer that promptly took a large cut of the meager backpay. Lifetime cap SSDI still pays out below the poverty line and you can't make money without having that garnished or outright taken away, depending.

So I'm growing up, watching, and eventually helping her navigate the fed bureaucracy, private insurance corporations, many almost-deaths, some of which came about due to the fact medicare just doesn't cover modern options for some problems, especially relating to COPD and lung problems. I'm growing up, and rather than going to school, I'm more or less holding a family together by blood, sweat, tears, and cashing in every favor i ever made and every ounce of good will i ever earned, continuously trying to sustain life in poverty, myself eventually working minimum wage gigs to try and supplement - we never really got any breathing room.

I set aside every need I had to sustain the people I loved, and just like annihilated my mental health in a dozen ways, and it nearly killed me.

So, at the intersection of the alleged promise of what the United States is, the reality of what it is, the life I had to live, the injustices I had to endure and witness in the process, and the spiral of my life taking me where it took me in the process, took me from someone probably destined to become a ride or die capitalist, into a proud America loving patriot I want to destroy this nation and everything it stands for