Inui [comrade/them] @ Inui @hexbear.net

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Appreciate the response. I think that's part of my issue is that I only really had one group of friends, so I didn't have separate people I could vent to, others to play games with, etc and kind of compartmentalize that. Definitely a lot of unintended meaning going around.

I do plan to start reading that book, it's already on my ereader.

How are you running the installer? Just with Wine directly? Have you tried something like Lutris to see if it makes a difference? Personally never had luck with Fitgirl on Linux, so I always avoid repacks.

Pretty much. You start by growing weed out of an RV and hotel room and then work your way up from there. Everything has a mini-game. You gotta cut open the bag, pour the soil in the pot, bury the seed, water the seed, then come back and trim off all the buds, put them in baggies, then do your deals and start again.

It's also multiplayer so you can run multiple operations at once.

You reminded me of this, so I have to share

I'm a very verbose rambler, so no worries there. I've spoilered my replies too to make it a little less long.

Hey folks. I've never posted in here, so this is a long one. I 'qualify' medically, but I've always been very resistant to self-identifying with my disabilities. I asked my parents to stop posting "I love my autistic child" junk on Facebook back in the day, even though they were well meaning.

I'm strongly aware of how they influenced my past and current behaviors, what overwhelms me and why, and things like that. But the resistance to the identification is still there.

I've had some pretty hard falling out with friends recently in part due to my own overzealous nature when it comes to relatively minor injustices, which is a quirk of my condition. I essentially called them out for all playing a new game that directly funds horse racing/animal cruelty and was given a lecture about how tired they are of virtue signaling in response. As a vegan poster, that was the last straw in a sequence of other events.

So I guess I'm trying to break out if that resistance and see if I would be actually be better off interacting with other ND individuals.

Has anyone else experienced this resistance and have suggestions/readings on how to get over it?

I think it used to come from childhood trauma. That my life till now would have been fine if I just had been born 'normal,' that I wouldn't have to dwell on every awkward interaction, that I wouldn't have been so arrogant in college or caused my parents so much grief, etc. A lot of self blame, regret, and self-isolating to protect myself and feeling others were better off away from me too.

I get that a lot of that now is a societal construction problem, not necessarily an individualized one.

I don't think I feel that way anymore, but I do still get residual feelings in situations like my most recent one, where my own behavior damages my social relationships, at least insofar as the group dynamic is concerned.

I'm not sure where the current feelings stem from if not the same thing.

Tldr; is there a book for people who (previously) hated themselves/their condition and so rejected communities and labels that might have helped?

Alternatively, something to help temper or more effectively harness injustice sensitivity/righteous anger?

My reaction when the old white security guard at an event walks up to me specifically to tell a racist Hawaiian dick sucking joke just because people were wearing lei.

I don't even know the guy. Also his breath was bad.

Vague Facebook posting but if you played an orange bearded dwarf on WoW around 2010 and were on the Scarlet Crusade server, I sent you a friend request on another platform that is still pending. Based on your North Korea posting, I highly suspect you're here and I want to apologize for how I treated you. I hope you're doing well now, tomodachi.

Understandable. I was just curious because someone recently mentioned the SimpleX dev also being a conspiracy lover and a bigot, which was totally true.

It looks like someone did a PR in 2021 asking them to change their language in their build instructions to be gender neutral and they locked it to say that that was not the place for 'ideologically driven requests from new accounts/non-contributers'. The same person said they wouldn't be against that PR in 2023. The team then changed their docs to use general neutral language, as far as I can tell.

While it's still a huge red flag, I'd be interested to know if you're aware of any other viewpoints or specific actions from other devs from the project.

If I have to turn on a fan, its too hot. If I have to put on a sweater, its too cold.

There's also Servo, or Orion. The former being nowhere near done like Ladybird and the latter being iOS and Mac exclusive atm.

Go to the Github, then click the green Code button, and download zip. It'll give you all the source images and re-sized emojis as of the last update.

The NSF guy you're supposed to interrogate in the first level is also black.

Something I always find exhausting with apps like this, Matrix, and federation in general is where the heck do I make my 'email' or account or whatever? Which host isn't going to share my info with the FBI but also doesn't abide bigots?

The more I think, the less I remember there being many beast race NPCs that are actually hostile. Its almost always Dunmer, Bosmer, Imperials, or Nords.

I started playing Battlefront 2, the newer one, with some friends because it was 4 dollars on Steam. I think it sucks, even with all the micro transaction stuff pulled out.

The visuals and sounds and vibes of Star Wars are excellent.

But heroes ruin any big game mode because they aren't a special powerful unit that shows up once or twice a match, there is almost no delay in someone being defeated as a hero and someone else being able to spawn as them if they have the points. So you get a constant stream of Jedi bullshit all game that let's the winning team steamroll even harder.

Factions are not balanced, especially with randoms. A few Droideka rolling into an objective wins half the CIS matches. Super Battle Droids are in every way superior to Empire troops.

Star Cards are still grindy to unlock, making small game modes also suck. You aren't winning a 1v1 against someone who just has 40% more health than you. Let alone a squad of them all working together with maxed cards.

Spawns are an issue where you can spawn in the line of fire and die instantly or have someone spawn immediately to your left.

For 4 dollars I got my money's worth but I think it's a bad game in almost every respect and I probably won't play it any more after this second week.

The last time I smiled was on August 19th, 1991, etc.

Does anyone know what I am talking about when I ask for this source I saw on Hexbear a long while back?

It was a former US military official explaining US nuclear policy as essentially "in a nuclear event, launch our missiles at anyone snd everyone, including allies. In the confusion, nobody will know it was us, and we prevent any any other country having an advantage over us in the Mad Max Future. We will be the only nation standing in the dust".

Thats a lot of paraphrasing but a good gist. I'm trying to explain to someone why its so dangerous to be in a direct war with the US and why having nukes is one of the only real defenses.