Owning cats helped me realize love is not simply words. Every cat I had showed their affection towards me differently, but i could still recognize it the same.
I wish. One of my kids actually interacts with me without prompting, the others not so much.. My wife acknowledges me first about once a quarter. My extended family notices me once a year or less! I haven't had friends invite me first to anything in so long, it's always me inviting them. At least my dog acknowledges me on a frequent basis.
I'm sorry to hear that. You deserve as much as anyone, you're not unlovable. I wish I could help you, but I'm not too good at this, or knowing what to say.
I've been suicidal before, and while I haven't experienced anything like that, I can assure you that life changes for the better for people all the time, even if it doesn't seem like it will. You're not stuck. There's a lot of coldness in this world, but there's also people you can meet if you put yourself out there. The other comment you got was sort of toxic, but they're right in that if you put effort in it doesn't have to be like that.
I'd also recommend looking for community resources, local counselors, and maybe using a texting crisis line, like this. Idk about lemmy but there's also probably a lot of productive mental health forums you can find all over the internet, for people with similar experiences that might be able to help you out better.
Why? This life is such a gift and every day is a chance to change what you don't like about it. Invest some time and effort into it. You have the power to turn life into anything you want and you are just going to throw it away? Quit whining and put in work. This whole "poor me" shtick is lame. A hug is a two way street. How many times have you put yourself out there to receive a hug? Be a hugger. Offer. I went to a 40th birthday party for my friend lastnight which I don't go out much.... I hugged every person that I hadn't seen for 20 years. Every person hugged me back. Do something for yourself and for other people and stop expecting MFs to make it happen for you. Damn.
I don't want gifts and it annoys me when I get them because you're just receiving an obligation to work out what the giver likes when it's their birthday or Christmas.
that's a wholesome post but it also sounds in healthy and repressed. the world doesn't end if y'all say i love you to your family members once in a while
I am here for all of this. We all love, and most of us are bad at saying it. We can give. We can say it. I love so many people. Tell them. Really tell them. It is more freeing than it is free to say.