Check in thread: how are you doing, comrade?
Check in thread: how are you doing, comrade?
Your corgi is out of rehab and feeling great! Staying with my folks until Friday night.
I wanted to make this thread since America has a holiday tomorrow, and ya know, this time of year can fuck you up sometimes.
This is your space to talk about anything cool you have going on, vent, or get some support.
Remember, you are loved 
Not a hexbearer myself but I feel the need to puke this out.
Not too great. Materially I'm okay, but the hitlerian pro-colonizer narratives all around me make me go all doom and gloom.
Death to Israel.
Death to Amerikkka.
Inshallah. Hope you find peace.
I am so full of hatred for settlers. Like, ion't even want these motherfuckers re-educated anymore; I want these colonizer ghouls packed into the same mass graves they put my ancestors in
Death to Israel
Death to America
Death to the settler axis until even the soil has forgotten them
I should have never come home for thanksgiving. Both my parents have gone full right wing and have been saying that they won’t do holiday shopping in person cause of all the “thugs” that will rob you in the parking lot. Endless dog whistles when they just hate black people. They’ve become completely brain broken by consuming local news.
Other than that I’ve been alright.
Jesus christ, I skipped Thanksgiving this year and I'm very thankful. Will be attending one of my queer friends' family Thanksgiving which should be much... more chill
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Big ooof. Sorry you gotta deal with that. Hope the time passes quickly so you can get back to your own space!
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I dont feel its productive to share how my internal thoughts are, so I will say internally its hell, externally things are alright.
Hope you find peace soon, comrade
Had a paranoid disassociative psychotic break 2 weeks ago, seeing all the doctors, have no chill, and I'm so so so so fucking sober. Its been rough tbh
Glad you're sober! Im almost on 2 weeks, if you ever need an ear I'm around. Sorry to hear things are rough. Im waiting on a diagnosis too - I did a full mental health screening recently, but might not be able to get the results cause I have no insurance.
Sending love and good vibes!
Thanks comrade. I appreciate the offer, good luck on your own journey
Just about 20 hours since I last had nicotine. I'm doing okay but cravings are really starting to get at me.
You've got this! If you can get past day 3, I hear you're golden after that and it just becomes mental. Here if you wanna talk!
being annihilated by the psychic agony and raw horror of this world
The horrors persist but so do we.
it cold. Hate cold.
Hard fucking same.
I'm doing good. Trying to kick energy drinks, mostly successful... but man, it's annoying how much more tired I feel in the mornings :(
Good luck! You got this!
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Thanks comrade! Glad you're looking forwards to the coming days!
Pretty good. On one hand, the medical debt continues to mount faster than I can pay it. On the other hand, we're still fed and housed, and I might be getting an ADHD diagnosis. Terrified of ADHD meds because of how often I feel jittery even without caffeine, but they say it might can calm me down so it seems worth a shot
I think I replied to the wrong comment with this in another posters comment, but yeah, I might be getting a diagnosis too. No insurance now though, so they might hold on to the results until i can pay.
Glad things seem well otherwise! Hope the meds work!
Welcome back!
I look forward to reminding everyone about the national day of mourning.
Thanks comrade!
Executive dysfunction continues to kick my ass. Finishing achool and any hope for a future where I'm not on disability are pretty much out the window.
But I'm in a great, loving romantic relationship and I don't really care about any of the rest of that anymore. So shits good
Learning Russian has been kicking my ass, but I signed up for the next level so hopefully next semester is хорошо, сейчас мой русский очень плохо товарищи. Looking forward to winter break when I can take a breather and just work instead of dealing with both work and school
Keep it up! Looks like you're doing great!
Спасибо! The grammar is melting my mind but I'm tired of being monolingual and want to visit Russia some day (the trans-siberian calls to me!) so I gotta stick with it.
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Thanks! And reading some Lenin is definitely one of the reasons I decided to do this, that and wanting to speak a second language that isn't fr*nch.
I've achieved a state of almost zen depression where I care about absolutely nothing and don't even have enough energy to feel bad about it. I honestly see no reason to do anything or even live anymore.
Hope things get better and you find a positive peace. The world is better with you in it.
good since i'm gonna quit my job
bad since i have to be around family for thanksgiving
Enjoy the quitting, and remember, the family is only for a day. You got thus.
gliding on desert waves of fiery void
I've been feing hopeful, public workers of my province have been striking, and have been purposely gathering in some city centers, and the general response has been really strong solidarity for those striking. It fills me with hope to see people gather and collectivize, and even be supported by the broader public.
Fuck yes! We love to see it!
First time in my life of internetting where I had a router actually give up the ghost. Had to drop some cash to get a new one.
Since I was buying things, got a wireless card for a PC I was rehabilitating to be a future "video entertainment device" in the living room. Figured since I was trying to make it run a flavor of Linux it was going to be a nightmare... but it installed without a hitch.
Accidently agreed to move to a different office for work because it was 10 minutes closer to home... but forgot to see what the actual hours of pay per week were going to be. If I've done my math correctly... I'mma lost about 150$ a month.
Good to hear your doing okay.
At least the commute is shorter!
I am doing well for the most part, aside from the crippling fear of defaulting on a mortgage or losing our power. For a while I couldn't find a job, and we had to go on SNAP. This helped us a lot, and was providing around $1000 a month for groceries. We were able to catch up on debts and bills, and didn't have to worry about food. Then I got a decent job (yay) and our monthly SNAP benefits went down to $250 (nooooo). System working as intended, but now we aren't eligible and fell behind after some illnesses and other stuff. Now it's like playing catch up every week, trying to pay the most immediately needed bills (and forgetting the others exist due to stress). I'm happy and thankful for having income now, I just wish it hadn't completely fucked things.
Fuck America. Hope you can get on the right track soon. Still looking for a job here, almost 3 months, so I know shit fucking sucks.
Sleepy!
Happy you're out of rehab!
Thanks comrade! Me too! The people who were fresh out of jail and prison said the place was worse than those in a lot of ways. Almost 2 weeks sober and feeling good!
Hell yeah!
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Mushroom
Indeed
Not terrible. My mom hasn't stressed me out too much yet. I'm practicing compassion with her but getting to the point of speaking my needs, especially to her, feels futile. So I just enjoy the good bits while she's still around.
Other than that, I'm finally in a good enough headspace to read theory and found a book club that's at the same part of wretched of the earth that I'm at, so I'm looking forward to that every week. And Oshi no Ko had a good chapter :)
Hell yeah! Sounds great!