2y ago

I feel hopeless

I know I have posted herd before and many have already seen my photos and said I had mental health issues but I'm still kinds convinced T hit me way too hard. I'm convinced that any doctor should of looked at me and said "no I'm sorry I don't think hrt will be able to help you" on top of that I was and still am very overweight I'm convinced I really should detranstion for the sake of the community, I would need to loose at least 200 pounds to know for sure. I would likely need go get off hrt cause I'm not only tall but also fat

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That sounds like it sucks.
You sound full of sorrow. You're also full of shit.
No one should detransition "for the sake of their community".
Hormones are magic, and can do amazing things.
You probably look fine.
looks it up Yeah, you look fine.
Dysphoria is a bitch though, huh?
Chill, everything will be alright.
You got this.
- I have been on hrt since February 2022 and still look awful
  
  How long did puberty take the first time?
  Also you look fine and I don't care if you believe me or not.
  Third if we were friends and someone who wasn't you was talking about my friend the way you're talking about yourself I would beat them up.
  Not sure if I'm saying "don't beat yourself up" or "do beat yourself up" but either way why are you putting up with that kind of shittalk from yourself you wouldn't accept from a stranger?
Sky this line of thought is super concerning and none of this is sound logic.
- I just feel helpless and unable to do anything to remotely improve this
  
  unable to do anything to remotely improve this
  The looks? Contouring
  The hopelessness? Pot.
I challenge you to take the comments you are making towards yourself and apply them to other women ("cis" or otherwise).
my friend is almost 6 foot... would you tell her she will never be attractive?
I have heavier friends... would you tell them theyll never find love??
because these are statements you're making with this post and while I'm sure you are (hopefully) only applying them to yourself, theyre still hurtful to read.
we have told you time and time again to be kinder to yourself and have offered so much reassurance but it's getting to a point where I genuinely feel like we need a ban on "do I pass" posts because they do nothing but cultivate unhealthy standards
I've felt hopeless before too. It's hard to see the positives in ourselves when the negatives seem so overwhelming. I'm really sorry to hear how much you're struggling Sky. I understand feeling like you waited too long and that the damage from T is too much. Mental health issues are really hard to deal with and regret can hurt for a really long time. I think it would be really helpful if you could try and confide how you're struggling with someone you know personally and feel comfortable talking to. You shouldn't have to deal with these emotions on your own. I also just want to remind you that we do have links to crisis services in our sidebar, if you feel like you may need them. I hope that the rest of your day feels a little better.
- I can't really ask for help no one has the spoon to help me.
  
  Also I can't change science I'm genetically unluckly, puberty hit at 12 and hit me like a brick

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