So you might have been wondering, "hey where has corgi been lately?" Well, I'll tell ya

Tldr; recovery from an opioid relapse, quit cold turkey, still having some PAWS (heh...but no, post acute withdrawl syndromes)

Been thinking whether or not to share here, but hell, i know yall wouldn't think any less of me. So, here we go.

There isn't really a whole lot to tell. Basically, if you're familiar with kratom, the leaf contains a chemical called 7OH. It's being sold as a "stronger kratom." Nuh uh, no way.

I was hooked on tianeptine about 5 or 6 years ago, to the point where i had to shovel grams of white powder down my throat every 2 hours to keep from withdrawing. Couldn't make it through a full night. Eventually quit cold turkey because i was getting married soon (didn't work out, while different story), and symptoms lasted me i think 2 or 3 weeks, it was pure hell.

Well, not too long ago 7OH was presented to me as a kratom thing, so I bought some. As soon as I tried it, I knew what it was doing to my brain. Went online and yep, some people say it's morphine times ten.

Tapered down, and then jumped off completely last week on Wednesday night. Compared to tianeptine, quitting was a walk in the park. Still totally miserable, dont get me wrong, but i was barely shaking. Now, the worst of it is just some lingering background anxiety, and the insomnia. I'm hoping only 1 or 2 more days to level out. I was able fall asleep for a quick nap today in about 25 minutes, so thats a big w.

Ive still been browsing when I need to take my mind off stuff, and have left a few low effort comments, but yeah. Just wanted to tell yall what's been up with me and where I've been.

If anyone needs to vent about substances or talk about recovery, I'm always happy to. In fact, my band is putting out a new record this summer and part of the promo will probably be me doing an interview with a website called Clean And Sober Stoner.

So yeah. Thanks for reading this far, thank you for letting me feel safe for sharing without being judged, and love to all my hexbears

53 comments

You are almost there!
Keep at it.
I thought about getting Kratom in the past because of a friend who kept telling me about how much it made him productive but only hear bad things from people who have been on it for a while.
- If you get REGULAR, PLAIN OLD KRATOM you can probably use it for a few weeks and feel pretty ok when you stop. I've never had any problems with the plain old plant, but this new shit is a whole different level.
  But, that's just me, and I'd never recommend taking something that makes you feel good for a really long time unless your doc tells you to. But also I am cursed with an addict's brain, so the fuck do i know
  
  I didn't know they were different types but that was long ago. I have been an addict from time to time so I know what you mean but something about it magically changed 2 years ago for me.
  
  Yeah, there's extracts and stuff now that are super potent too, but those are kinda self limiting because you'll feel fucking terrible if you have too much.
  
  If it feels anything like phenibut nausea then yuck. I am prone to binging and throwing stuff away while having a bad experience and cursing at it for days only to want it again and hoping it would be different. The mental image of the experience keeps me away.
  
  Oooph, spent almost 7 or 8 years on phenibut, up to 10g a day. That one, I used the help of a doctor to get off of. GABAgeric drugs are no fuckin joke. That'll kill you.
  
  Oooph, spent almost 7 or 8 years on phenibut, up to 10g a day
  That's just way too long. I couldn't even be on it for a week. I was a go to work drunk kind of alcoholic previously so there is that.
  GABAgeric drugs are no fuckin joke.
  I have two prescribed to me for neuropathic pain and anxiety right now. I just take it when I get bad flare ups instead of being on it everyday day like the doctors expect me to. and the lorazepam only if I get a panic attack. Te be fair I was even prescribed morphine in the past so this felt like nothing in comparison.