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peppersky [he/him, any] @ peppersky @hexbear.net
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  • i had a very nice day on saturday with the one friend i have in this city, we had coffee, we went to the museum, to her place to eat something and then to the movies and it was very nice and she told me i give her energy when she doesn't have any and asked for us to make plans this week, but now that ive asked her about making those plans she says she'll probably be too tired after work to do anything and she needs a short break and like thats all reasonable and stuff but fuck man i dont ever feel too tired to do something with my friends ever. i dont want to take a break. being alone doesn't give me any energy. being with my friends doesn't drain my energy. i want to do stuff. doing stuff is fun. i want to do stuff with my friends. the stuff that is making me tired is everything else in life.

    is this just what life is going to be like from now on, just everyone being too tired and busy to do stuff and then we die? i dont want to live like this. im crying. i don't want to cry. i want to be happy and make the people around me happy. but they don't want me to make them happy i guess. this is not good

  • nothing i do comes together in any way everything in my life are individually ok experiences that have nothing to do with one another in any meaningful way, they don't synergize, they dont come together, this is not a way to live