The LDS church is straight up is a scam. They are tax exempt, require you pay tithing, and even use their members to clean the church buildings, despite the absurd amounts of wealth they have. And all they do with that money is build temples all over the place, and hoard it.
It really does, and it especially sucks to live in Utah where everyone silently judges you for existing
I once setup a entire matrix server for my school club that comprised of 4 people because one of our members couldn't use discord lol
It's been kinda difficult, I ended up reaching a point that I used the suicide hotline number but the person on the other end was very helpful and I feel a lot better now :3
I definitely can relate to how you feel, but why not keep going just to spite life? And why not try to have fun while you can? Things will inevitably get better at some point. Hope you feel better soon (•‿•)