Get diagnosed, it only has benefits. Don't read things on the internet unless it's an official medical website. I have had depressions because I just wanted to be normal, but with my diagnosis and proper education about it (no Facebook groups, TikTok or other bullshit self diagnose/tips and tricks liars), medication and of course therapy with a psychiatrist I got a great life now (steady job, wife and daughter, own house.. ) which before my diagnosis wasn't gonna happen.
So I played football with a tunesian dude which was married off for sure, I assume it was a green card thing. He never actually said it, but he "met her on holiday in the village of his grandparents" and she is multiple times a year for over a month back in Tunisia with their kids. I asked him once if he doesn't miss his children and he laughed and said "young children only need their mother with them my friend" We also never got invited to his place or actually saw her. I live in Belgium btw.
My oldest, out of 5, account was 13y. I fucking loved reddit, but the last 5-6 years it was still easily 1-2hours a day but on tablet and phone. Always RIF. Since RIF is gone I only have being back on my porn account through browser.
How can you not be patriotic when you have so good doner kebab?! I live kinda near Köln and there is a kebab place near the Belgian quartier, mem-et, and I regularly think about it because it's so good.