Thank you for the detailed response. I will try to find time to read the gender dysphoria Bible. I appreciate you allowing me to vent/voice myself here. Whilst I like to believe HRT could "fix me", I am dubious. Plus, for some reasons I neglected to mention in my original post, I feel tied to my life as it is. I have a wonderful, straight, wife who wouldn't be happy being married to a woman. She's the love of my life and I just wouldn't ever consider risking our relationship in order to fulfill my desire to explore transitioning. I think there might be ways for me to fulfill my dysphoria without necessarily fully transitioning and maybe I'll start exploring those.
There are a lot of reasons I feel like I can't. For one, my wife is likely not going to be happy with me doing anything drastic like HRT. I have a wonderful, lefty, smart, wife who would be understanding. But I don't want to upset the balance of our relationship. I came out as bi to her and that wasn't an issue since we're monogamous. I'm quite certain (based on past conversations we've had with each other) that if I made myself more "womanly" she would be less attracted to me. And my wife/family is the most important thing in my life.
I just can't imagine doing all of it. If I was alone and single, I might consider therapy, transitioning, and then HRT. But I think the dysphoria is manageable since I'm not struggling majorly. I do worry that in 30 more years I'll regret it, but I also worry that I'd regret doing it because maybe it'll fade away.
Also, thank you to anyone who responded previously to my post in the wrong community. I just reposted because I felt others might reciprocate my feelings.
Overall, like I said, I'm generally happy. But I do tbh about that - if I could time travel - things might be different.
I vaguely remember an episode where they covered this, but: I'd love to see an episode where "nothing" happens. What does the crew do on their slow days? Research? Holo novels? Training? I'm also interested in more mundane interpersonal drama as a break from the high anxiety stress of ship destroying melodrama.
Holy shit the article is far less tame than the title. They provided several ways to run commands as root and they can be generated as an over-the-air HTTP call. As per the article, if you buy the Jooki domain, it's very likely you can control every single Jooki on the market. You can make the speaker do whatever you'd like. Pretty scary stuff. One has to wonder what nerds can do with that kind of tech: turn speakers into a low quality mic? Use them as bots for a DDoS attack? Just start blasting heavy metal music? Or just brick every device?
It's pretty wild what the devs have done here. I can excuse executing commands as root from a file on the SD card. It's not exactly safe or smart but it's also not the most dangerous thing to assume only people with access to the device would do that. Hardly a worry for most parents as long as you're not especially reckless. But to allow OTA root level commands to be run? That's a horrible design. At least setup a user that can only execute a few pre-designed scripts. Don't just give them carte blanch to run havoc on your hardware.
Just another reminder that every wifi enabled device is likely a ticking timebomb. Especially low quality devices meant for kids. Baby monitors, speakers, etc. have a history of being built cheaply and poorly. That's why I bought non-wifi baby monitors for my family.
And… I love your username. Toughest Starfleet captain, model main character, and a picture of femininity.
Thank you!
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I'm on board with that philosophy in theorry. It's just difficult to actually make those changes. I've tried shaving and several other gender affirming practices, but I just fail to feel like it's acceptable to me. I feel like I either need to be 100% fem-passing or not at all. As a man, I'm self conscious. As a man trying to pass as a woman, I'm 10x worse.
If anyone else is reading this, that they should know I don't even support my own logic. I'm just acknowledging it for what it is. I know we should accept ourselves, be open and honest, and express ourselves. But in the "real world" that takes courage and sometimes risk.
I have a great wife and a wonderful daughter. A house and some pets. My wife is as lefty as it gets and I can tell she'd accept me no matter what. I know she wants a man - ultimately. But she and I are open about gender roles being fluid and reversible. So, for me, that's enough. I wish I could wake up with our roles reversed sometimes. But I'm stuck in this body. My efforts to be the other gender just feel lackluster and ineffective.
I'm usually quite happy in my day to day life. But the dysphoria just hits a little hard sometimes.
I appreciate the response. Yeah I'm basically in the same boat. I've seen a lot of the discourse online surrounding how people still feel it's worth doing even if they can't meet their goals. But I don't think I could ever do it. Maybe it's a lack of courage but it's just hard to imagine. I think I'm committed to living in the dark on this front.
In a world where space is usually the cheapest and most available hardware on a PC, I tend to agree. That being said, it's the kind of solution that comes from engineers who put the onus on the hardware to make up for their shitty software. Engineers like me.
Thank you for the detailed response. I will try to find time to read the gender dysphoria Bible. I appreciate you allowing me to vent/voice myself here. Whilst I like to believe HRT could "fix me", I am dubious. Plus, for some reasons I neglected to mention in my original post, I feel tied to my life as it is. I have a wonderful, straight, wife who wouldn't be happy being married to a woman. She's the love of my life and I just wouldn't ever consider risking our relationship in order to fulfill my desire to explore transitioning. I think there might be ways for me to fulfill my dysphoria without necessarily fully transitioning and maybe I'll start exploring those.