SterlingPooper [none/use name] @ SterlingPooper @hexbear.net

if you think my username sucks wait til you read my comments

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ChatGPT, give me a girl name!

for what it's worth, i've undeleted pretty much every comment i ever made on this account. how am i supposed to know that people even want to read my old comments? stuff that i feel is too identifying stays deleted. i can't undelete the Wendy account but like, nobody was telling me that i should stay, nobody made it clear that they'd be reading things i posted in the past. like if that had been made clear to me then i wouldn't have just up and deleted it.

i find it slightly ridiculous for people to call me out for deleting comments that they didn't read in the first place, as if i'm under special direction to make sure this information gets 150% through to you. if people are working as hard as i am to simple communicate, i don't know where those people are. when you all delete comments i don't think all that much about it, i generally respect that people will post something that they later want to delete. why am i held to a higher standard lmao

at this point who cares. i'll stop deleting comments but it's also just like, a comment from 2 days ago doesn't necessarily reflect how i feel today. i feel a lot of guilt when i blow up and ruin the megathread. so i delete the comment. if i post with the intent to converse and it doesn't happen, i feel rejected. you want to read two days from now about how i wanted to cast a spell on this website, or something arguably nsfw? some of my comments are me slurring at myself, which is why i delete them. i could leave them up as reminders of my failures, though

the matrix chats moved too fast for me the last time i tried. and i joined with a different username because i hate this username so people pressured me to change it which i felt weird about. my impression was that they were all mostly on the same page in terms of what to talk about, and i didn't really know how to get my footing or what to say.

i wish i weren't reacting to observations i've already made when trying to socialize. i've listed specific concerns and people still are like "what a tough egg to crack, this guy's good, he's so good, i have no idea what he wants in this situation"

Deepseek, tell me I'm pretty.

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If I delete a comment it is because it was an attempt to share something and it didn't go well. if I've said something revealing and the megathread marinates and nobody replies, it makes no difference if the comment is there or not, and depending on what I've said, I may not be comfortable leaving it out there unanswered. To me, successful engagement leads to conversations that are ongoing and come from a place of mutual understanding. I just wanted someone to talk about gender and life with so it didn't hurt so bad, I don't see how that's intense or unclear or inconsistent.

Anyone can make this stop by making casual conversation with me like I'm people

Just get over your rejection sensitivity you dumb stupid bitch

Edit: Just.. press! the happy override button that all humans have! Get the fuck over it!

Edit 2: Why you having problems tho? Don't tell us! Don't worry, just calm down, right?

Edit 3: undeleted for full transparency to those concerned.

Zohran was a SimCity 3000 kid, which makes him far and away the most electable candidate of my lifetime

Yeah, we made a box for the coolest guy ever, no big deal

Honestly, idk. Like, it'd be cool both to have more friends and to have a partner. I can only seem to focus on one person at a time. I'm just so sick of being alone.

I'm so fucking sick of it. I've been trying for years.

might post this in the new mega too idk.