Thanks for the advice mate.
Wish the best of luck to you and your friend!
I agree with all that and I wish I coud let go, but there just feels like a building resentment for me which appears and vanishes every few days.
I really don't think I can talk about it. I'm not one who's comfortable talking about negative emotions and cannot imagine the embarrassment of that conversation.
Its a bit of both i think. If purity culture didnt exist I suspect I wouldnt be this far down the rabbit hole. But theres def other issues too.
Yeah a lot of that sounds similar. The she is cheating on me is luckily a thought I havent had, don't think I could deal with that. The she doesnt love me but is with me until smth better comes along is whats always there. I dont really think i'm like depressed, or if i am then i'm on the lower end of the spectrum (if there is a spectrum).
I can definetely think of happy times, I can still have happy times occasionally. Now one thing I'll confess is that Im 100% incapable of talking about feelings. I've worked on understanding em and managing them, but I simply cannot ask for help. Not even my closest friends who literally beg me to let em help (blessed with great friends honestly).
Yes I know. Hell the feeling isnt even consistent. I feel fine and in my rational mind rn. But I'm sure it'll be back in a day or 2.