Nearly every day at work or in school, or within my friend group, someone tells me I'm valued and make the world a better place. I am doing research on something important to me, getting a degree in environmental science, just did a production as stage manager and got to sew costumes to make my trans friends feel amazing on stage, and I still get home and think about blowing my brains out most days. Last winter I hospitalized myself again hoping to break the cycle of misery, and that didn't work. I'm one of the lucky suicidal people who can leave the house and interact with other humans (some of those love me, and I love back), but even that isn't a cure. Nothing has made life worth living, and after all these years I still don't know what would.

John Deere and a few others recently paid like 20m to build a diesel tech training center for my university that includes several large vehicle bays and a fuel development lab, with the expectation the students would work for their companies after graduation. It's starting to look like these kids will be opening their own businesses and ending the cycle of ripping off farmers in the community.

As a former mechanic with lots of lovely health issues before even hitting 40, I really hope they do work for themselves so they can get out of the grunt work when they are my age and still earn from their experience

I have been on both of those and I don't think you'll notice the bupropion helping until you're out of the withdrawing stage. Venlafaxine is a really wicked one to quit, I'm a bit surprised your doctor didn't do a longer taper off schedule.

For what it's worth, I really loved buproprion, and it's done wonders for my bff who also has adhd.

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I should have put that in quotes to avoid confusion. I'll edit :)

I've known (or dated) a few conservative men who refused to get vasectomies because they "lower testosterone". And, of course that means they're less of a man (to themselves and others who think that way).

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I have most of the fixings to make this. I think I'd rather chop everything up and eat it with a fork though lol

I've tried ket twice, and the first time was unforgettable. I remember feeling so incredibly alone, even though I was at the biggest party I think I've been to. I need that interconnection you get from the other ones like lsd or mdma.

That whole paragraph is probably a commentary on my life lol

I feel like my adhd is the reason for my extreme stress? I'm inattentive as fuck, which is very fucking stupid because the ptsd symptom I can't turn off is hyperawareness. I'm always noticing everything, but trying to keep track of it long enough to put into context is a struggle. Life those two symptoms are at odds and making each other worse?

Even trying to explain it like this feels stupid.

Psychedelics were instrumental in keeping me alive after the events that caused my ptsd in the military. But I really don't think it was just the drugs, I think it was also that using the drugs usually meant being in a "safe" place. There are people who will try to abuse you under the influence of the drugs, but they aren't (usually) welcome in the groups. I would give one or both of my arms to be able to go back to that time and place, but like the article brings up, I need some medication to keep me going that interacts with most of my psychedelic choices. (also, of all of them ket would be my last choice. I never understood why it's so popular lol)

When trying to identify a plant, its characteristics are what you go by. This page has some that you can use for this plant, though you'll need a dissecting microscope most likely for some things, like stamens (the things that have pollen).

https://gobotany.nativeplanttrust.org/species/stachys/byzantina/

I completely forgot about this until I read your comment. My grandmother whole-heartedly believed Biden was a clone or had been replaced by a doppelganger by the middle of his first year as President, and that he had died of covid. By then she had stopped watching FOX and moved on to OANN.

My ex studied psychology and diagnosed himself with a cluster B personality disorder. I'm not sure which was worse, the fact that he saw himself that way, or the fact that his self diagnosis gave him the freedom he needed to start acting like he had the disorder.

I feel like ssdi or ssi are only "okay" if you live with family. I'm a single adult with no relatives, and the 1k/month(ish) I get isnt even enough to cover renting an apartment where I live. Even if I lived with family for free, that 1k/month wouldn't be enough to pay for the things I need that are directly associated with my disabilities (doctor visits, travel, assistive devices, a maid or property manager, my service dog and her needs, etc.).

There was a study recently that showed support for assisted dying is higher among poor populations. No shit, we can't afford to live, and we can't afford to die from our issues either lol

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