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"Go Forget Your Father" by Cathy Linh Che

Because the birds sculpted the air with their song —

I sent that flash across the sea. Candle in a paper lantern,

the flame rose and dipped.

I’ve been hiding from my father.

Fog-damp pall over the city. I ink this bruise onto paper.

Years ago, in Highland Park, we’d picnic in the backyard.

We slept in the living room. I clung to my beautiful mother.

Flipped the pillow and pressed against its coolness.

I held grudges like tiny fists of sand, then, let go.

I kissed the fog and sky and the ocean’s cobalt hue.

You. I hadn’t yet met you.

Murky alphabet —

I falter the letter, I elide the gaps. If the opalescent dew meant anything,

it meant that one day I’d be lifted above my feelings.

You’d become less than a feeling, the way every lover I’ve known

no longer hurts me. Those old charges detonated.

Here and now, I make room for joy. Birds ribbon the air with their singing.

Bird voices riot up. The planes with their hulking engines —

they fly too. The jags of each cliff head —  Your lips — I uninterrupt.

I charley horse and miracle ride your absence. The whipped froth of the ocean.

Puddle of salt water, shivering wound. Seaweed, we sing of losses.

Cold under this blanket, I wait for my alarm to sing.

I’ve polished this anger and now it’s a knife. I’m hardened as a hunter ornamenting his cave

with the bones of the dead. I’m so sick of history dragging behind me.

Today, I don’t want to be sad. But my father has retreated into silence and the lashes

across his back have not healed, and my mother tells me he could have killed

himself that night and we’d be blamed. Call the police, she said.

We stood barefoot on the street, listening to him throw things

against the garage walls, detonations of only what we could imagine.

I hurl stones into the ether. I wash my hands in ink.

The lost in the fog body borne of matter, history-less, untethered.

Better to be alive and bewildered. At least I can name the thing.

To love my father is to love his wounds.

In times like these, we present our hurts like old toys we polish up

to show each other who we used to be.

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  • Yes, you're right about the English definition - talking politics is difficult in a global forum because of these strange idiosyncrasies.

    I do try to use the language flatly, avoiding emotive words where possible. It's interesting you say that "woke" has positive connotations, as I think the Republican🇺🇲 and Conservative🇬🇧 crowds have been using that word as something approaching a slur!

    When I say "conservatism" I am strictly referring to the definition in the dictionary or the wiki. I feel like the UK Tory party is definitely following a more anarcho-capitalist expression of the ideology, but their trans exclusionary rhetoric does have the air of "traditional" CoE values around it. In the states, the creeping in of a Christian flavoured version of Sharia law is an interesting development under a lib president, as I would consider this an expression of conservatism.

    Personally, I think the connotations that the term conservatism has earned over the last hundred years are well earned, especially as the core values of conservatism seem to be somewhat nebulous. Ultimately we can only judge by the totally flawed implementation of the system that we have - just as we have judged Communism to be a totally unworkable and flawed system by studying the facist regimes of Russia and China as examples - despite the similarities between communism and what the USSR/CCP were/are being almost nil; though this is probably what you were driving at with your closing statement! 😅

  • Moving to new platforms/3rd party apps has made me realise everyone else has something against collapsing child comments.
  • "hide all child comments" was a much beloved feature on BaconReader, at least for me.

    I also preferred the card view of content, and that all read content would get hidden.

    But this is something new, so I'm trying not to compare them directly - I don't really want Lemmy to just be new Reddit, but something new.

  • This app.
  • Legit thought Lemmy was serving me an advert for a moment there...!

    But yeah, the official R*ddit app is Garbo, they even bought Alien Blue years ago and have just failed to keep pace with Apollo, RIF or BaconReader. This API move is just a monopolisation of their content stream, hugely anti-competition.

    Even if they sorted out their app, rolled back API to free, I'd never go back. Fuck Spez.

  • Individual control over other federations?

    So I'm new here - I wondered if there's a way to "block" entire other federations?

    E.g. I've seen complaints about "exploding head" being a wellspring for undesirable content, so turning that off individually gives users control over their experience without giving a power of censorship to the admin of this instance.

    Also there are servers out there where English is not the default language - which is of no interest to monolingual me. I'd rather turn off content from that server entirely rather than just playing whack a mole with every new community that gets federated(?) Across.

    TIA! 🙂

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  • 11yr r*ddit refugee here.

    Franky - nothing short of torching it and rebuilding it from scratch.

    Firing Spez is the bare minimum, but there's no guarantee that the successor won't be another moron oinker. Federating won't be profitable (not that R*ddit ever was) and there's no way that they'll be making every contributor a shareholder.

    There's no way I'll be going back, the system will fail again because it's predicated on a flawed ideology.

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  • Filed a GDPR "right to erasure" request for mine - but I don't doubt that I'll be going to the ICO in 28 days because Spez has failed yet again.

    Thanks for the thread, gave me a couple more tools to pursue...!

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  • I guess you have to pick your poison.

    Personally I can't think of a single traditional value worth preserving and I've got nothing worth conserving - given the pollution of the right that modern day corruption has completed, I'll stick to the lesser, at least until I can't dodge advertising anymore.

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