Tl;dr: I asked a girl out :)
I met a girl in a flight and thought we got along well, but she was only in a layover flight while I was in the last flight of my trip. Still, we kept in touch, and she's apparently coming to my city for a few days in two weeks.
So I did something I had never done before (even though I've been in a few relationships before) and asked her out! She said "maybe" (her trip was already planned and she is busy and staying with some friends, she seemed genuinely sorry) so in two weeks I may have a date :)
I fixed my refrigerator. 2 months ago I was changing the filter, and I was too lazy to turn off the water first, so the pressure was too high and it didn't seat properly. When I turned it, I broke the filter receptacle. I called Samsung, and they said they'll fix it, but they can't tell me how much it will cost until they make the work order, and at that point I can't cancel it if it's too expensive. I asked if they could ballpark, like $100 or $1000. They said they couldn't. So I told them to go fuck themselves. I ordered the part on Amazon for $60. I had to disassemble a decent amount of the refrigerator to get to the part. But I did it! I swapped out the part and everything works perfectly. All in all, it took about 2 hours. There were multiple videos on the internet on how to do it.
Fuck Samsung.
I fixed a boot issue from the grub command line for the first time.
This week has been rough for me. My nervous system is fucked up for various reasons.
Normally I drink one cup of coffee per day. But I had an Uber passenger whom I took to his job at a convenience store. He said “Can I offer you some coffee?” so I came in and grabbed a cup (my second for the day).
That was Monday evening.
I was then awake until wednesday night. I could not catch a fucking wink of sleep for that whole time.
What the fuck, brain??
Well, Tuesday and Wednesday I obviously didn’t drive, because I’m not going to put my passengers in that situation, of having a sleep deprived Uber driver.
Finally Wednesday I realized how I could knock myself out. I cooked a big thing of pasta and ate a ton of it, and sure enough having a big meal knocked me out.
Fucked up, but I’m proud that (a) I didn’t risk my passengers’ safety by giving in to the temptation to drive (I really need the money so it was tempting), and (b) found a way to fall asleep finally.
I know this story doesn’t make sense. I really wish the way my brain worked made sense. It would make life so much easier.
I've got a 5(A) on my math(algebra+geometry) exam. Before that I've always had a 4(B). I'm very proud of myself :)
I helped a stranger at Costco load up a giant grill into his truck. I have no idea how he would have managed it on his own.
Managed to get myself referred to a psychiatrist/psychotherapists for my complex issues after having previously done counselling/CBT with very little help in effectiveness of my emotional wellbeing due to having a complex past. Honestly can’t really believe it’s taken for me to get health insurance to be able to get help for it after having tried to get help via state healthcare but they’re entirely useless and only offer counselling/cbt within short terms and discharge you if they can’t help you anymore ;-;
It’s been such a slow process and it’s had a huge effect on my university education negatively, due to it but honestly I’ve haven’t felt more optimistic than ever tbh despite having days where it does get difficult.
(disabled in a weird way from thoracic spinal damage) No matter how impossible it seems, every time I have something take me off my physical therapy routine of mostly riding a bike every day, I drag myself back out and force myself to hold a minimum fitness level at any cost.
I got sick and a week and a half of inactivity has me at 3 days on the bike in the last 6, and I'm back to 16 miles, 2 days ago. I'm about to leave for 26.
After over 10 years of spending almost all day, every day, in bed laying very reclined, riding a bike is my only real physical activity. This is a strange state to exist in long term. I atrophy extremely quickly, probably because I was in race shape when I was disabled. While I am no longer at that level, I never lost my legs, very low resting heart rate, or lung capacity.
It hurts so bad each time I struggle back to ~30 miles daily. I can't do anything else at the same time, and take Tylenol at max doses for little relief. I can't even manage to read much or cook right now. However, I think I'm already over the hump for this one. I slept 4.5 hours last night compared to ~3.5 the nights before.
Right now I'm procrastinating. It feels impossible, like there is no way I should be going out and riding a bike, but I'm going to put down this phone, kit up, and make myself coast down the hill; mentally picking one little target after another; lying to myself dozens of times about how far I must go before I can just turn around and go home.
a friend invited me to play a boardgame online, called Kingdomino. I really loved it, and since money is tight, I made my own copy of the tiles for in-person play.
They aren't perfect by any means and it took a fucking age to do them, but it's a playable version I can bust out with friends and family.
I started a blog this month and happy I got 20 posts published
I got my iron farm working in Minecraft
These are all big things. I beat super mario wonder 100% the other day
It's small because I knew it was coming, but I got the job offer for a promotion! Not many people I can tell.
I have irrational emotional resistance to thinking about long term planning related to money. Set meeting and met with three financial advisors with my partner. She said that when yesterday’s meeting touched on retirement I looked miserable, but hey, took some steps.
I crossed the Gulfstream on my sailboat. Twice.
I got a number of patches merged into Movim & after a new release is cut, I plan to ask for a review on my first NixOS module (currently complete, but no one has reviewed)
Over 2 calendar months without a drink today. Coming from 2-3 beers a day, previously. Did February, but told myself that didn't count since it's a short month, so now I've done March. I thought I would start drinking a bit now to "celebrate" but it's funny now that I'm here the urge is gone...
I'm going to Muslim wedding next month, so now I'm thinking I'll at least keep it up until then, just to make going to a dry wedding easier on myself.
I'll see after that. I definitely don't want to go back to daily drinking again.
I wrote a short story that is actually well written and doesn’t make me puke.
Obviously I never finished it and moved on to the next project, so well… glass half empty?
I learned to play a cool song that incorporates slapping and fingertapping on guitar, but I re-areanged it to play without fingertapping cause finger tapping on my guitar sounded horrible. Still sounded pretty close.
I did "Friend Like Me" for karaoke with coworkers. It took quite a bit of practice, but I got most of it.
Speaking of friends, I had dinner with a friend I haven't seen since high school. They hadn't had falafel before so I made falafel, hummus, muhammara, and tzatziki. Those are two achievements: rekindling a past friendship and honing my hosting abilities.
I just reached the final cut scene of Nioh where the main story ends!
To me, the difficulty is OK and my biggest challenge is the lack of free time to play it. Free time to play video games is a luxury because not only I need to have free time, I also need to decide if I want to use it on playing video games, among lots of other hobbits, and learning, upgrading work skills. It was a struggle but I managed to finished it without feeling too guilty.
I successfully line danced in 4 inch stilletos. Yes it was a Cowboy Carter launch party.
I successfully made a checklist of work tasks, and checked several of them off
Might have fixed my mail server with a bodge. I will see if its still up and running tomorrow.
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Yesterday, I made a choice that was very tough for me to make. So three years ago, I had a best friend, and we both liked each other. Things got hard because my feelings went too far, I became emotionally unstable and turned into an attention seeker. So because of that, I then ended the friendship.
Recently, she added me back. I thought we could be friends again because I felt like I improved my mental state in the last two years and won't turn into an attention seeker again. Well, a week later, I was the same as I was three years ago.
It was ruining my mental health severely. I couldn't focus on anything. But I still wasn't ready to give up on the friendship because she was a very nice friend, and I still liked her for some reason. So I refused to give up. But things got worse real quick, and then I decided to write a long message to her explaining why I can't continue this friendship and then I blocked her everywhere.
At the cost of ending all probabilities of a future with her, I feel much better now.
Gotta do something about this attention-seeking thing, though.
Taking part in my daughter's school dance, wearing a ballerina costume and not making her look bad, on the contrary, her laughter made my day!
I finally got an ultimate clear in Final Fantasy 14, after seeing the end of two separate fights right before the groups I was running them with went on break. For reference, Ultimates are the big end game raids that take upwards of 30+ hours of practice at the low end to get through
I taught my dog weave poles and he loves them!
I quit my job 4 hours ago. Yesterday I signed a contract with the competition.
Two nights ago I finished the minimum viable product of the app I've been working on for a while. I've been a programmer in one form or another since I was 8 years old, but here I am now in my twenties and I'm only just getting my first app ready to publish. I've done small stuff for my friends before once or twice, but this is my first public app. Part of me is ashamed it took this long, but a bigger part is excited! The program is a desktop client for e621 (if you don't know what that is, it's probably because you aren't a furry, and I'd advise you not to google it) that has some nifty search features the main site doesn't. It's not ready to publish yet, but I do have a first draft working, GUI and everything, and I'll probably have at least some version public (alongside the GPL'd source code) by the end of the month, hopefully by the end of the week (since that's when school starts back up).
I actually had all the backend code working for this a few months ago, wired up to a Discord bot that I had never gotten around to making public. Unfortunately, about a month ago, my laptop's SSD got corrupted (due almost entirely to my own incompetence) and I lost all the code for that bot along with all the other data on that laptop -- and hadn't made any backups. It was tough. I bounced back, though -- I rewrote the backend code in record time since I remembered how I did it
and since the power of horny compelled me-- and the rewritten version even has some features the original didn't. I rearchitected the entire search query parsing algorithm and made it roughly three times as complex, but it was worth it because the spaces between terms in the search query are OPTIONAL now!In all seriousness, if anyone reading this who knows what e621 is would find this program useful, please let me know, and I'll get you a beta copy. Bug reports and feature suggestions welcome!
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