With all the terrible things going on in the world, I have lost all motivation to kill bugs

I decided against posting this to c/vegan as I want some negative feedback.

For the record, I absolutely am not saying that my not killing bugs is a noble act. Frankly it's just vibes. I've been on this planet for 40+ years as a bug murderer. I would not be invited to the Bugs are Friends convention.

I've just been feeling a lot of personal stress this year. A lot of stuff has been going on in my personal community, and I'm seeing a lot of hostile stuff from the state as well as a lot of people are struggling more. I do mutual aid but it just feels like a drop in an ocean of need. On top of that, a situations happening that cause me to be homeless is not far from the realm of possibility. I'm unsure if I'm overreacting, but I can imagine myself being homeless. (Sorry homeless comrades if this feels like I'm trivialising it).

Obviously the attacks on vulnerable groups are terrifying, and as active as I am in orgs to agitate against it, I feel hopeless to do anything about it.

So with all that happening, I just have this dude chilling in my room:

He's not hurting anyone. He's responsible for non of the shit that's going on right now. He's just living. Why should I give a fuck about him???

Previously I would occasionally spray and leave traps. I'd squash a bug if it was annoying. Now I just keep my place clean. If I see two that means there's maybe many more under the sink and shit. But are they hurting me? (That is a real question if you want to answer.) I'd probably slap a mosquito if they got close, as I don't want a disease, but wearing long trousers and long sleeve shirts when in nature takes care of most of it. In fairness, many a friend and comrade how commenting how I'm weird that I can wear long sleeves/trousers in 40 degree celsius weather.

I'm a middle aged guy. You're not gonna hurt my feelings by critiquing me. BTW I'm not yet advocating for not killing bugs, this is 100% my feelings at this point.