The Feedback Loop OF DOOOOOM

I'm retired early at 35 and haven't worked since before I was 30 (injured veteran.) While limited, I had a fairly functional external life pre-rona but since then my ex I was with for a decade left at the end of the pandemic and I hadn't been around anyone else my people muscle has atrophied.

I'm bad with people because I'm not around people much, but I'm not around people much because I'm bad with people. I'm bad with people because I'm not around people muchbecauseI'mbadwithpeoplebecauseI'mnotaroundpeoplemuchbecauseI'mbadwithpeople^{becauseI'mnotaroundpeoplemuchbecauseI'mbadwithpeople}

AHHHHHHHHHH