Dropping the bit for a bit. I'm actually contemplating packing it in for romance. I'm in my 30s and really haven't a relationship that lasted much more than 6 months. I think I'm just kind of annoying dude to be in a relationship with (a good chunk of my relationships have ended after I went on vacation with my partners 😂). I think the oncoming political situation is just gonna make dating for a (mostly) hetro guy even worse and frankly I'm getting more and more comfortable being single anyway. I like sex, but whatever, I'll get a fleshlight I guess.
you have no idea how many conventionally annoying, freaky ass weird ass motherfuckers find happy relationships, i guarantee you're not as much of an oddity as you think. keep at it if it's something u want, comrade