my partner and I are still numb from everything. We have the necessary documents together in case we need to leave the country quickly. We're going to take enough money tout of the bank in case the banks crash or something like that. We're getting ready to get ready.
Going good, I managed to tell my girlfriend of 8 months that I relapsed on heroin and am trying to get off it (again) and she is very supportive and accepting, I love her so much it's unbeliveable, never loved anyone this much before, I can't believe I got so lucky from a single bumble match with a girl that lived 30 mins away by car/train. We see eachother 2 - 3 times a week, almost every week despite that, we just sit together and do stuff together, it makes time fly like the wind.
This makes me really happy; I wish you the best of luck on your difficult journey. You know what they say: the opposite of addiction is connection.
Thanks for sharing.
I took a photo of my blahaj after her snuggle affirming surgery. I wish I could share it but my app, Sync, doesn't want to upload it. EDIT: I tried with a second client and still couldn't upload the image.
compress the image first, there's a max upload size and I think a max pixel size (I forget)
Thanks! Successful Shark Surgery!
Absolutely fucking shit.
Sorry. I thought things would be different. Sorely disappointed is an understatement.
Same 💔
Agreed. I think that this may be a galvanizing force that would otherwise would have been absent though. I think this will cause a lot of new friendships to be forged and bring about a unity that would otherwise never have been possible. Hell of a cost though, hell of a cost.
About to get a lot worse!
I voted early. My partner voted today. Took 2 hours. We both have anxiety because of the 2016 result. All the polls were looking good, then we woke up in what felt like the wrong reality.
It’s all everyone is talking about. At work, in my apartment building. Even the sports bar down the block had election coverage on. It’s unavoidable and inescapable. I’m watching a movie to distract myself. Then I’ll turn on the news once the polls start to close.
I was an election judge in 2020. I’m kind of feeling guilty for not doing it this year. But I don’t have the capacity. I’ve been feeling straight up burnt out for most of the year with no end in sight. I’m actually thinking about calling the employer EAP.
I always celebrate all the wins in life , no matter how small. October and so far November have not had any of these. I really hope I wake up with good news.
Absolutely horrible. Keeps getting worse. But hey some good news, at least I won't be alive when the US of A finally fucking implodes on itself due to recent events. 🤬 Bigots and fascists; and this is what I served for, to 'protect'?? Fuck ya'll.
Thats pretty big, "at least I won't be alive"... I won't ask "everything OK?" because like, obviously it isn't, even if we just consider the trump thing. But... What's up? You okay?
got my early vote in on friday, since i suspected the lines were going to be long today.
today is my birthday. 🥳
sheepdog festival last weekend was great. echo got to hang out and get a billion pets from all kinds of people, which is her favorite thing! she also had her first hotel stay, which went really well. she only barked three times (at the shower).
last night, our first rally submission was recorded, which i sent in today for judging. pretty sure we'll get a passing score, easy peasy. i want to look into some more virtual titles we can do, since i get ring stress pretty bad. 😅
Happy birthday! :D
thanks!
Happy birthday to you!
thanks! (also, worst birthday present ever, AMERICA.)
Sad, disappointed, and worried.
...Awful?
It's so fitting and poetic that, just when I finally start getting my life in order, the world throws itself off a cliff.
same! just moved to a safe state and started a new job and was about to try to buy a house. just got my gender marker updated on everything. was (still am, inshallah and the creek don't rise) scheduled for bottom surgery next year. everything seemed to be going in the right direction and I had so much hope, especially in the last couple of days before the election when the energy and enthusiasm seemed to be peaking and I was thinking that Harris might actually win.
Now, fuck, I don't know if I'll have a job next year.
I started a job with the federal government two months ago. I'd been applying for like 18yrs; finally got one! Now a part of me wonders if I'll even have a job next year. Potential for Schedule F designation, layoffs of the federal bureaucracy, whatever other shit a hostile administration throws at us.
Feel exactly the same 🙁
Terrified I'll never get to vote again. Terrified it's all going to get worse. Terrified for my unborn child.
Depressed since Epstein's Orange friend won. It is a dark day for humanity. As I said in the 5th of november thread I am here to talk you do not need to suffer alone. <3
I know this is selfish and stupid but everyone is so wound up about the election that I didn't really get a birthday this year. Half my family didn't even text me.
A friend still wanted to do a birthday dinner so I texted my sibling asking if they were free, but they somehow missed that it was about my birthday plans and they were having a breakdown (not about the election) so we had to cancel birthday plans to keep them company. I shouldn't complain because I love my sibling, but whenever I told my family about mental health stuff, they always just yelled at me and made it worse. I don't understand why they suddenly believe in depression and think depressed people deserve support.
Also like I said, I know it's selfish and stupid, but I just wanted a day to pretend things were normal before I start scraping money together for my passport and getting my tubes tied.
Happy belated! Hopefully you're able to reschedule birthday dinner.
Thanks <3 I think I'm done with birthdays to be honest. Whenever my family asks what I want I just ask for a party with a cake and they never mention it again. Then my friend tried to at least take me out to do something fun and I ruined it for both of us by inviting my sibling. I don't feel right asking anything else of her or anyone.
Happy Birthday! 🎂
Happy belated birthday! may the next ones be better 💜🎂🍰🧁🌸
Slept <5h each day since last Wednesday.
Fucking tired. Sleep hygiene rules don't help.
Will probably try sleep meds today.
I hope you're able to find a solution. Sleep deprivation makes everything so much harder.
I'm curious if this is the last resemblance of democracy the United States will see.
I'm worried for the people stuck in red states, and worried this is going to spread outside America again like it did in 2016. I feel like I must live in a very different world compared to rural americans. I can't imagine how a fascist authoritarian would be the logical choice ever.
I've been trying to put myself in the shoes of someone who voted for the orange man. It seems like inflation was the biggest factor for a lot of people. I guess I can understand that when it's hard to afford groceries anymore, the correlation equals causation argument that Trump pushed becomes more alluring. Biden/Harris were in charge when inflation happened. Would it have been much worse with Trump in power? I think so, but maybe a lot of people are just thinking that a change was needed, enough to ignore literally everything else about Trump. I dunno, but I refuse to believe that most people who voted for Trump are fascist or racist or bigots or misogynist. Just trying to stay hopeful.
Dropped off my absentee ballot earlier today.
Update on Linus (our kitty who experienced kidney failure last week): Last I posted we were waiting to find out how much his numbers had gone up. It turns out his creatine went up quite a bit. It was over 3, when normally it should be 1.5 or lower. The vet said at this point it's possible it could go back down (he didn't seem optimistic about this), stay the same, or go up more. We're taking him in again on Thursday to see what it is then. If it stays the same, we probably only have about two or three years left with him if we keep him on a renal diet.
He has a lot of his personality back and has his full appetite back (yesterday was the first time he ate his usual amount of food since he's been hospitalized), but his energy level is definitely lower than it was before.
Sorry to hear about Linus. Kitties are very good at hiding their illness. May all your days with Linus be the best days ❤️. And hopefully there are many days left to enjoy.
not great
but about to play some gameboy so that’s good
What games?
Mostly the 1st harry potter gba game, it’s jank but playable with savestates
I want to post my thoughts, but at this point, I feel like the country has gone so far off the rails that I need to keep an eye on my op-sec. Suffice it to say that I'm devastated, exhausted, but filled with a new resolve. This post (a bit of a long read) has been helping me refocus and move forward: https://wagingnonviolence.org/2024/11/10-things-to-do-if-trump-wins/
I am autistic and in my country I've been told before by my case worker that I qualify for MAID. This cruel world just isn't meant for people like me, and I am now starting the application process for MAID.
I'm so sorry. I wish the world was kinder.
qualified due to autism? You have not explicitly said your reasons for seeking MAID, and whatever they are, I'm sure that you know what you are doing. I just want you to know that I believe autistic people are one of greatest natural gifts that the world has given us. Y'all have a gift to see the world in a refreshingly-different way from everyone else, and there are many autistic folks in my life that I love dearly. Many of them have survived some very dark phases in their lives, where everything seemed hopeless, and yet today they are the happiest people I know.
Whatever you end up doing, I just want you to know that I believe your existence is a treasure to this world, and many others do as well. But I don't know anything about the rest of your situation, and I respect whatever you decide to with your own life.
What's MAID?
Medical assistance in death
Despite almost two months of not gaining weight despite feeding on demand, our daughter is finally up to the 41st percentile for weight gain by age and is hitting her developmental milestones. Trying to focus on those positives instead of all the negative emotions I'm harboring right now. Trying to remember that she's a tiny little vibe-o-meter and that my primary focus has to be her well-being in spite of everything else that's going on.
I gotta say, this was a weird week to start HRT.
Good so far. My wife and are currently in Miami waiting for our connecting flight to Jamaica. We have been looking forward to this for months. Getting everything ready was stressful but we are very excited. This will be my first time leaving the US.
Did you arrive yet? How is it?
Sorry I'm just seeing this. It was truly amazing and beautiful. We got to meet so many friendly people, eat things we had never tried before, and got to really relax. The locals were so accomodating. At the airport now ready to fly home in a few hours, it's bitter-sweet, I'm sad to leave but everything comes to an end and I miss my dog!
Lol
🤔I don't know why I keep trying to talk (verbally, with my own voice) to people in the actual world. Maybe I should just share here, virtually, with my Beeps, or else just write down my thoughts on index cards.🙊
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Numb as f like every day and every year. The whole US situation didn't faze me, just like 911 didn't. If they did you must have something I don't.
