i feel like if you asked me growing up i would say im closer to the neurotypical side, now that im grown i realize im much closer to the autistic side.
I wouldn't say I'm really closer. I hated being autistic for a long time, but I'm actually a bit happy about it now. I can understand social cues better while still seeing the world differently. I think I wasn't close with my NT side, but I also ran from my autism. Once I got closer with my NT side, I realized being "normal" wasn't my issue.