so...haven't been around for a while, so I thought I'd launch myself back in with a random question:
Would it be really fucking weird to get in touch with a teacher who went above and beyond to help me through some really, really tough shit 30 years ago to just say "hey, I've always remembered you, and I have turned out OK and am pretty successful, thanks"?
edit: thanks everyone
A few weeks ago an old codge ran into the side of the man's car. Today we've fostered a 2024 Toyota Kluger so we took it to macca's.
So tonight I'm going to an event that I have never been to before; a poetry reading at a local pub by a modern author. They have an open mic as well, but I am not even close to confident enough to consider that.
But I do consider this my first step towards the culture and being a part of a community, after dabbling so long with prose and only reading poetry books since I was a small child. I think my first book, that I can remember, is one I still have: a book of Childrens Poetry (Lewis carrol, William Blake, etc) that contributed heavily to my love of the artform.
I have no idea why I feel so anxious and nervous, or why I want to back out. I guess avoidance and the fear I'll make a fool of myself, despite not performing at all. Idk, I hope I can find a welcoming community within that space, but even if I don't, I'll still write. I don't think I could stop writing, even if I wanted to.
I've been craving broccoli for days since having a delicious yet extremely simple stir-fry of it at my aunties. Just broccoli, oil, garlif and mushroom seasoning at the end (all of which I now have).
She has a magic touch with cooking - and a much hotter burner - but I watched her make it from start to finish so I really think I could replicate something similar... broccolibroccolibroccoli I'm gonna eat a whole head of it tonight 😋
It's frustrating when you know exactly how your voice should sound, and you can't quite get it right. Especially when you know you've done it before.
It's been so long since I've taken singing somewhat seriously. It's a lot of fun!
Just have to be patient I guess.
Payroll just went off their shits at something that turned out I didn't do anything wrong but they misunderstood something and it turned out another person missed another thing but that wasn't me but is somehow still my fault and I just....wat.
reading her emails was like having a random chicken fly into my face out of nowhere and explode.
I legit did not even realise it was the first. Nor I even realise it was the GF on the weekend.
I have been under a rock.
I am trying to order eggs online and their system has decided I am not human. If I was a robot what would I do with eggs? Surely ordering eggs is itself an indication I am human, being able to identify animals sitting down seems a bit superfluous. And in any case as long as I pay for the eggs should it matter? Why can't robots have eggs if they want them? Seems clear discrimination to me.
Looks like my work team is going to have some big changes coming up. All good news - just people having good life changes and bigger and better things. But did they all need to confide in me today? Separately and quietly?! Walking around not saying anything but feeling sad but happy but also stressed about workload and next things.
Made it down the bellarine to check on the chillos. Asked the p's over the w/e to water them as it'd been over a week.. said they didn't need to they're fine. Got down and sure enough they certainly did need a drink. Dry as a chip.
Glad they all made it. Currently tucked in under the led disco light. A lot are getting their 2nd true leaves :)
Should start speeding up soon. This part is slowww.
Goodnight everyone, sleep well and sleep silent. 😘
Melbcat thanks you for her birthday wishes! She’s just having a chill one today, enjoyed a slant of sunlight and then some snuggling.
I wish I’d been more proactive about getting on the Internet Archive or watching stuff in general before the options got cut down. Couldn’t find the classic slashers but that’s ok I guess, been a bit stressed lately so probably don’t want to watch anything too full on.
I watched Suspiria (1977) which I’d heard about. It was… alright? Interesting in terms of shots and effects but I found it a bit hard to pay attention and some of it was a little corny.
I expected to be into it because of the soundtrack but while it was good music well executed it was also a little overwhelming, it was meant to rev you up and give a sense of panic and dread like the musical equivalent of jangling nerves and a pounding heart - but it more gave me a headache with the sound effects and banging, like over application of a heavy perfume. It was all just a little too much sensory wise. The flickering lights also probably didn’t help.
One thing I did like was the shot of the scene which the girl ran through showing that it was a reflection, and the way her own shadow seemed to be chasing her. It was really nicely done to imply a topsy turvy reality and a sense of paranoia.
It definitely did have a dreamlike/nightmarish quality with the way the scenes ran together without much context for what was going on, and the mood lighting.
I can see why it’s a cult movie.
The nights are slowly starting to warm up. 🌞🌆
Today was my last day walking to the free food market. From Friday it is moving a bit further away, so I'll probably drive instead. It will be undercover which is a big advantage, but being just a couple of blocks away was pretty handy for me.
I did get both mushrooms and cream today, so creamy mushroom sauce and a creamy brussels sprout bake are on the cards. A couple of things I grabbed turned out to have been frozen, which is not great. The salad mix I put in the freezer to go in the next dog food batch, the cherry tomatoes are in the freezer for future cooking & I'm still deciding what to do with the strawberries. Either jam or a cake probably.
Egg order now complete. Apparently it is only Chrome that thinks I'm a robot.
Olive bread dough is sitting in a bowl in a sink of warm water. Will probably be ready to eat at around 3. And then later I'll be making chicken sausage rolls for dinner, enough to have heaps left over for dinners and lunches. :)
I'm having shitty sticky thoughts after a recent nightmare, so whilst I engage in some mindfulness, here are some memes to make light of the situation. Also fun fact - the word rumination can mean to chew the cud. Sheep and cows are ruminants.
