Just can't shake the blues. No idea what's wrong specifically, just a grey cloud hanging over me.
I think the isolation might be getting to me. I don't normally speak to a friend more than once or so a fortnight.
That's a big part of work for me. I miss being around people. I feel alive when I'm around people. I'm getting by on the fumes of an oily rag so going out and doing stuff isn't really possible.
Just gotta be patient.
/vent
Here's the dinner report after the husband's folks came for dinner.
So it mostly went to plan. After dinner and I had cleaned up I sat down to do some needle work but bro was bored and he'd been very sick, just came out of hospital, so I took pity on him. After he insulted me just a little and I pushed back a little I asked him if he reads audiobooks, as that may be an easy way for him to do an interesting activity. He said they always send him to sleep. My radar immediately pinged real loud, I'm always on the alert for when he or others talk about their experience in cults. I went on to explain that the books he was listening to were designed to relax him and even send to him sleep. I explained how the tapes were relaxing, why the makers of the tapes did that and how those books differ to regular audio recordings of regular novels and nonfiction books. I never once used a value judgement or trigger word. I never mentioned the cult nor any people in the cult, I kept it fact based and impersonal. He listened with interest and very intently.
I'm a very good cult deprogrammer.
This is an old throwback now: Does anyone remember me complaining about some "Mates" Who had kids and made some really distasteful "Jokes" back when we were still struggling ourselves? Something about throwing their baby in the bin or something cause he was frustrating them? Well, got a bit of an update on them.
Drama
They are struggling. Hard. Her mental health is in the bin, and he is pushed for time having taken a job that seems him out of the house from 5am till 6 or 7 pm. Add another kid to the mix and its not going well. he made a joke about "Needing more support". I laughed cause we also don't have family around us. But I think it was kind of a hint and I just.... fucking no chance. I didn't say anything, but there is NO way we're stepping into that mess.
Almost everything that's going wrong was visible from a mile away before they made the decision. Her mental health is crap cause her family fucking suck, but she does running back to them every time. They threw a dog and another baby on top of the first one who I think has some development issues. The whole thing is a mess and i know it sounds cruel, but there's no way to help them without them trying to suck you into the vortex of their drama. I've made that mistake 2 or 3 times before, I'm not making it a 4th time. If you could just drop off a meal or babysit for a bit to help without hearing how horrible everything is and leaving feeling worse for having done a nice thing..
I feel sorry for them, but at what point do you go "You've kind of shot yourself in the foot there, can you please not bleed on my kitchen floor?"
Morning cuddles
slipped on a wet floor and fell face first towards the hardwood dining table. my hand managed to catch the side of the table with about 10cm to spare before I smashed my forehead. Suspect with the speed it woulda at least knocked me out. Sad to report I neither saw the light nor had my life flash before my eyes.
Dinner report part 2.
As I wrote below bro has been in hospital and he really is poorly, no denying that, even hypochondriacs get sick. Husband's mother was there, she's elderly now, and she was complaining she was so tired from visiting bro in hospital everyday. It's a 45 min drive there .
I got 🙄 and reminded her the doctors told her to only visit every second day. She was so angry that she couldn't play victim. I do not care, I don't think the others did either.
She asked if she could take food home, I gave her the scrapings off her own plate and put them in an old washed take away container. She didn't get a carry bag either. She doesn't get meals to take home anymore , not after her slanderous games.
I just do. not. care.
Good Morning everyone
I slept in for forty minutes so why do i feel more tired
I have a business idea for anyone that wants to take it. I noticed Red Hat have a partner page, and their aren't a lot of Australian based companies on there. LibreOffice also has a page about LibreOffice enterprise and LibreOffice in the cloud.
Go through the certifications and you could have your own consultancy that sets up Linux and LibreOffice for businesses.
It's not a guaranteed money maker and you'd need to offer other services, but it's nice to know there's an option to get people off Windows. There might be demand for it with concerns around recall and the demands of Windows 11.
Do with this what you want, I don't have the time, skills, or network to make this viable myself.
Today's dream involved looking at planning applications... but every time I did, they fell apart. Like the drawings of the buildings collapsed on paper or on an aerial image. Or I'd head on site and watch them blow up in front of me. Meanwhile Sufjan Steven's Eugene has been playing in my head in the dream and while awake. ...and he called me Subaru... And now I wanna be near you 🎶
I'm starting off the new financial year with pay day today. A bit of a tax cut and a sliver more Super. If the new EBA gets through there will be a pay rise in a couple of months. Not enough to keep up with the CPI increases of the last couple of years but it's nice to be finally closing the gap a bit.
Just back from Brunswick and popped into some opshops. Not one stripe jumper on the racks anywhere. All gone.
@Seagoon_ Wifey is trying to claim that it's really not that uncommon to mix Crunchy Nut Corn Flakes, Nutra Grain, and Weet Bix together. And to eat this particular cereal combo for dinner.
I'm not doubting her... I just haven't come across this combo before.
Anyone else here mix three different breakfast cereals?
I think about this every five years or so , the singing detective , https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hos1hoI2neU
Finished the dual screen and dock setup. One work laptop is STILL a bit dicey with the dual screens and I can 100% confirm it's a shitty usb-c port.
My original Metabox laptop though... it's getting onto 6 years old, the dock connects to one screen only but not two. Realised the internal AND external graphics drivers basically haven't been updated since the laptop was bought, yikes), so I've updated those but no dice.
I can sense myself using this to procrastinate on all sorts of other things so... one monitor is better than none. Onwards...
Taking a break from a rewatch of The Strain to watch Abigail was doubly hilarious, it's like watching Fet get nerfed.
some weezer, buddy holly https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kemivUKb4f4
The irony of me being so active in food subs. But I used to really enjoy cooking and want to pass my favourite tips and recipes on
Just in case you're wondering, there is a Tour de France app to look at while you're watching....
Years ago, someone did a live feed using Google Earth mixed with the coverage and various graphs on screen and it was the best coverage I've seen....
So I'm watching a Pattaya 4k walking video on YouTube. Honestly I just find these working girls on the streets in next to nothing quite sad.
