So i still have depression and im constantly bored, i feel like a loser who cant do anything right. I want to let my creativeness out, make something i can share with the world or family, but im probably dreaming too big. I cant stand being depressed and bored, it stinks, everyone tells me to work out but i lack the motivation to do so.
i usually just watch youtube all day while complaining to family members that have no idea what to do about me.
Hehe. Just start with something that a lot of other people also begin with. Like Python. And get a nice book that takes you along the journey.
If you want to make games, there are lots of free engines out there. Like Godot for example. But I don't know if this is a good choice for a beginner.
Just try some. See what you like and what feels good. Watch some YouTube tutorials and find out what other people use to get an overview. Maybe have a look at free software / open source projects.
Oh why? It needs quite some attention to detail... You can focus 100% and forget the world around you and forget all your problems. (I'm not sure if that is a good thing in the long run.)
But it is rewarding. You'll get a sense of achievement quite fast. And after some time you'll be able to do useful stuff. And it's usually a very creative thing to do.