such a negative way to put it. I smoke weed. Into geology. Who doesn't like fossils right?
And who doesn't have some kind of internal monologue, even if it's just the 'haha you fucked that up nicely' sarcasm when you bang your feet on some furniture? slandering all those decent, fine things with spirituality seems rude, and uncalled for.
But who is the author of said thoughts? From whence do they arise? If you look carefully you'll find that there is no author and that the self is an illusion that arises from the nature of consciousness. This is the essential insight of Buddhism and other contemplative traditions.
I like to think consciousness is just a higher self that creates a projection that we understand to be our "self". The projection and its source are both representations of the same self, making my thoughts a product of my self. Or in other words, I can claim to be the author of my own thoughts.
Some people evidently do not hear a voice in their head. It generally blows the minds of people who do, but minds are so varied its possible we're misunderstanding each other when discussing voices in head. Similar to the question if two people see red, but only know it's red because someone taught them, can we be absolutely sure we both experience the exact same "red"?
If your mental white balance is off, everything would vary in the same amount, but if you could b9th project the image you see somehow into another mind it would look different.
I think what chatokun is talking about is that some people don't hear their own voice in the way that you describe. I think I am similar to you, in that my thoughts often form a clear, internal dialogue, but I know people who just don't. It baffles me, because I can't imagine what the inside of their head must sound like.
On the flip side, I am fairly sure that I have aphantasia (lack of ability to visualise), so often people get confused at this in a similar way. If you've never had a thing and don't really understand what it feels like, it's hard to understand what you're apparently missing