emdash is whatever speedball cocktail they put Biden on for my neuron alignment. pure brain-to-paper ADHD—unadulterated—they refine that shit till it’s blue and a hacky sepia filter appears over the Mexican border. my keyboard is my pharmacist and Word is my insurance company
erm a comma would work better there—fuck off. enter my mind palace coward. you won’t know what I wrote either
part of the reason that guys like this get sucked into 'right populism' per se is that there is no viable alternative presented to the public. People are angry. they want someone to punish. you give the public a choice between the violent spectacular death in fascism and the slow agonizing death in neoliberalism, they're going to choose the former–at least it does away with the farce that we're not going to die as is. This guy rolls up and domes one of Eternal Hitler's spirit barons in the streets of Manhattan, and it's because the neurons finally linked–I'm in pain, I'm in debt, and the guy bleeding me dry is the reason for my agony.
Our job as agitators is to encourage that kind of thinking, and that involves taking advantage of the state of play, even if it's not as we want it to be? Like, especially if we cede ground, the Dems dictate the 'left' talking points, and they're gonna condemn his actions, and it's going to wrench this anger even more rightward. We need to present a viable alternative to that.
reminded of the bit in a recent chapo about how 'if the white house spent the costs of shipping and handling to get real christmas trees from a district across the country over plastic christmas trees just because a dem senator has them in their district, there would be an entire news cycle cut out to mock how incompetent a cost that is'
my hot take is that steal checks should be a timing/rhythm challenge in 90% of video games where they exist and any rolls regarding them should pertain to how tight the timing is
i'm reading it rn, it's easier to say that to encompass both Kaiba's holograms and the Shadow Game spirits (if I'm interpreting them roughly accurate, I just finished the DDM arc), both are technically projections of monsters from the cards
unfortunately the only solution to this that I've found (besides properly medicating yourself in cases of physiological barriers, of course) is being willing to be very bad at something for a while until suddenly you realize "wait I'm way more put-together on this than the average person???" and then it becomes a bit more fun because it makes you feel like you have a strength.
The other unfortunate thing is that you are going to have to clock whether or not a hobby will be fulfilling for you, like, six months or more of regularized investment before you actually start seeing signs of it. You aren't exactly going to know, and sometimes it just won't work out despite your time and effort. just how it is.
In my case, it really helped me to view the tedium as goal-oriented; I want to make a game, so I'm going to learn what I need to make a game.
Almost four years ago I was absolutely dreading the idea of being responsible for the music because I felt like I was genuinely dogshit at composition in a way that was irreparable. Late 2021 I pushed myself into trying it despite that. This semester I was personally recommended by a previous professor of mine to be in a more exclusive composition workshop with a visiting prof. In January 2022 I was making shit like this. Less than six months later I made this. Another six months, made this. this week, here's a rough snippet I whipped up wholesale in 30 minutes over lunch with a sandwich in my free hand. This isn't religious devotion to the hobby, this is like spending a couple hours a week tinkering for like a year and then afterwards being just sporadic enough to not get totally rusty.
As I've seen it put, the time will pass anyway, and I used it to turn something that was fundamentally embarrassing for me in a way that I was bargaining to get it off my plate into something that makes me feel happy about myself. The primary question of a hobby is always "does this make you happy," you're not going to find out until you're knee-deep in it. The investment is daunting–my executive functioning is shot, so I totally get it. Sometimes you're hooked, sometimes you gotta get in the mud with it until you understand it.
sorry if this is sorta grandstandy, I just kinda had almost the same thought process about this all a bit ago and it took a while of wading through the muck for me to finally have it click for me. hope it all works out for you,
i'm super overloaded with school stuff until december, any emotes that I have added since like august are ones i just squeeze in there when I have a minute
I had the opposite thing where the second the horrors started ramping up again (also in 2021) I felt like I needed to do my part in promoting a social/cultural 'out' from Zionism for Jews in my community who've been raised on it. Like, try to help further mainstream a Judaism that regards Zionism as fundamentally disgusting, so other conscientious Jews can pull the escape hatch more easily. The indoctrination runs deep and the rot even deeper in my experience, entire Jewish organizations that present otherwise innocuously are built primarily to promote and rationalize the existence of Israel. Shit sucks and it suckers in libs hard because it's so baked into the institutions. I've personally helped steward along dozens of people in that process, especially at my former summer camp, and one of those people is very actively helping in facilitating organization on the ground for Palestine, which is very much an honor.
I want to embrace my own Jewish heritage in order to exemplify that it's fine to be Jewish and disavow this Hitlerian statecraft project that leeches onto Jewish identity, and a lot of other non-religious Jews want to embrace it to ignore uncomfortable feelings they refuse to reckon with.
I live at 1234 House Boulevard and I believe the white race will retvrn to the 1950s ads and win a holy war on the world and then Based Aryan Santa Claus and his army of Jolly Elven Groypers will come out from their century of hiding from the woke mob to unsoy our blood and show us how to get to Hyperborea
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emdash is whatever speedball cocktail they put Biden on for my neuron alignment. pure brain-to-paper ADHD—unadulterated—they refine that shit till it’s blue and a hacky sepia filter appears over the Mexican border. my keyboard is my pharmacist and Word is my insurance company
erm a comma would work better there—fuck off. enter my mind palace coward. you won’t know what I wrote either