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Day 64 of not drinking, sober living is driving me up a wall

Been back to work for a week and it's already become my safe space. Not only do I need the extra hours, but I just want to get away from the shit of the house. People going off their psych meds, people who refuse to do anything for themselves, and they all expect me to pick up the slack for them. I spent my day having my phone blown up by people asking for cigarette money that I didn't have and wouldn't have given if I did, I had to stop in the middle of my work day to do a wakeup call for the person getting back on their meds today, I had to clean pretty much the entire house yesterday even though I live with 5 other people and half of them don't have jobs.

My ride is coming 3 hours late today and I thanked the fucking Lord that I don't have to deal with these people until at least 8. Sorry for the rant, these people just try their best to piss me off.

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  • Congrats on over 2 months!! That's amazing!

    It sucks when you're the one in a group who has your feet proverbially under yourself - especially if you were in similar circumstances earlier and have now got a better handle. You don't have to take on more than you have, including making wake-up calls for adults who strictly ought to be taking charge of their health by being compliant with medication, or cleaning the house for people who (it sounds like) could do some hours of cleaning on their own in the place they also live - taking on too much for too long is a recipe for burnout, you don't want burnout. It's just plain bad but you will be a better helping hand long term if you avoid it.

    Anyway, you seem like you've got a handle on boundaries by saying no to cigarette money

  • day 64

    less than two weeks behind you, sis, and it sounds like you got more on your plate than I do

  • that sounds exhausting. im proud of you for keeping to it this long, though

    • At this point I have to. Not to get too dark, but I made a post about last time I drank, and I came really close to dying that time. That would have been fine to me in my addiction, but now that I'm not in active addiction I want to live again yk? If I drink again I'm gonna die over catastrophising temporary problems and it just feels like it's not an option anymore.

  • daaaaamn good job! you got this!

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