Orgasms and food are a waste of time that just makes me feel uncomfortable and I only waste my time with it when it's absolutely necessary. And even then, the faster it's over, the better (even if I might enjoy it in the moment).
People keep saying it's the best thing ever and i'm incredibly confused by that
Even though I do feel more okay with eating a bunch, I too feel people are overhyping this orgasm thing. Like, ew, no thanks. Literally every time I decide Okay, the time has come again, I should probably do it now I think Woah, I could be programming something interesting now, but no, my body wants to fuck. Great.
I do understand the connection to eating things too though. It feels unnneccessary and like some thing you just gotta do sometimes cuz u gotta do it I guess.
Spoken like we share a brain. "ok but I could be productive"
Tho I do feel like it might be a little better if I would get bottom surgery but that's quite a bit in the future. For now i'm just happy that estro killed almost all of my drive.
Too adhd/social anxiety ridden to go out and meet people, apps are terrible, but it's for the best, because one of the very few times I actually had contact with someone they gave me herpes, and I'm way too depressed to be around. So, uh, yeah, I need help but it's not like anyone really can help. It'd be lovely to be intimate with someone again but I'd feel bad for anyone I let close enough for that. Sorry, overly depressing, you just kinda caught me during a crash and I'm desperate to let it out somewhere.