I’m jealous that you’re getting your first go through, that was a pretty magical experience.
I usually watch the whole series every couple of years, and I’m due for a watch now, but I can’t. Star Trek was something I shared with my dad, who died two years ago, and I just can’t seem to make myself watch it anymore.
I watched Star Trek because my dad introduced me to it. I'm now a dad and I am sharing it with my kids.
I don't know you, and I don't know your family, but if your father liked Star Trek enough to introduce you to it, my guess is that he wouldn't want his death to take that away from you. If anything, my bet would be he'd hope it would bring you comfort and fond memories and hope for the future.
I hope you can get there when enough time has passed, and I hope this message might help it all hurt a little less.
Oh yeah he totally would want me to keep on going, and I’m trying, but there’s just too much emotion there. It’s a show that I love because it’s a testament to what humanity could accomplish if we just got our shit together, and I’ve always felt emotionally attached to the show… it’s just too much right now.
Grief is complicated, and two years is no time at all to recover from the death of a parent. It makes complete sense that watching something you associate with him would still be painful, and there's nothing to be gained by forcing it.
Eventually you'll reach the point where reminders of your father bring up happy feelings, with the pain of losing him still present, but not overwhelming. That won't happen fast, but you will get there. That's the time to give TNG another go, and see how it makes you feel.