I am coming here seeking advice. I am 21, studying and am currently doing an internship. But it's not going well. I am struggling so much with getting disctracted and watching youtube. Even though i often do want to do someting, i often don't do anything except watch youtube.
When i do actually do something it's often not what i need to do.
It's getting really tiring and i just want to be able to do the shit i want and need to do.
I often watch youtube to have some sound, but i can't turn it off after, it is also often the same with listening to podcasts.
Often when i try to improve it only works for about a week and then i fall back into my same habbits.
Do many of you struggle with this, and what do you do about it?
In this scenario, I adjust or change my medication.
You can, and should, implement changes to your life to make it more structured and easier. But doing that often requires that you're already in a good space. That's where the meds come in.
Don’t fall into the “the goal of medication is to stop needing it” trap. It’s a tool, get over any shame about it. Yes use it to implement good habits, but not in a “so you stop needing it” way, but in a “so you have good habits and so your adhd is even more effectively under control” way
I hear what you say and I agree with you that that shouldn't be a Taboo. I however like myself more when unmedicated and don't like to be dependent on them. so I think it's better for me to try to get more into medication in the coming time but not see it as an end goal :)
I can relate to the "I like myself [way] more when unmedicated". In my case, I realized that I am already dependant on them. Trying to get by without them is doing harm to myself in various ways.
That energy was in my case better spend on finding ways to cope with the medication. For example: if I'm going outside to see people, I might not take them. It makes it harder the next day, but slightly enough that it's worth it.
Yep! You can't fix a broken process with a broken process. The meds get you to a place where you can start to sort yourself out. Then you can reduce or remove the meds.
I was on the 50 of my meds for a while, sorted myself out a lot, and now I'm on 10. I occasionally bounce to 20 when I'm struggling.